The Me Inside....

That's what I feel today. Anxious. Excited. Nervous. Hopefull. Scared. Happy. Uneasy. Restless. Relax. Gratefull. Numplek. Jadi satu. God, How I wish there's an anwer for every single question. How I wish everything is as definite as all rivers run into the sea. How I wish there is no complication in the equation. Don't ever let go. Ever.

It's past midnigth and here I am, staring blankly at the screen. I've one too many things in my head that I find it difficult to pick one to blog about. .... .... .... I change my mind. Not gonna blog tonight. I need to 'empty' my mind. Im gonna watch Private Practice. Good night.

Yep. Been hearing a lot about people dropped dead suddenly. Mulai dari si Adjie Masaid, babenya si Joshua, then just now Emma's friend juga Dadaism died of heart attack. She was 29 years old, just got ,arrayed last October. Life is so fragile. That's why I really hate Andi each time I have to remind him over and over again about healthy lifestyle. Anyway, decided to make a bucket list for myself. 1. Back to NZ 2. Sky dive 3. Vacation to Russia 4. Having more than enough funds for Onya to pursue her degree in England, Oxford University preferably :) 5. Ngeliat Andi punya bodi keren 6. Buying a house for my parents 7. Karet tengsin dijual Hmmm....... Belon kepikiran yg lawn. Nanti di update lg deh