The Me Inside....

Rektum itu ada hubungan sama pantat kan? Or not... Anyhooo! Sent from my iPhone

The husband still belonan. Gw udah lepeek keringetan and masih kebelet e-e. Haiyaah... Setianya diriku.... Sabar yaaa, in two weeks babak ini akan berahir dengan indah. Doooh... Pantatku, rektumku, Otot-otot lurik-kuu.... Bertahanlaaah. Jamban yg tidak indah itu menanti di Flamboyan. Sent from my iPhone

Im in the car, alone. As always, this is the best time to have a 'me' time. I said in my earlier post that I didn't wanna think tonight. Well guess what? Here I am, thinking hard. Analysing every single corner of my heart. Mendadak I miss SL. I miss Jo too. Why? What made them stands out in my life. Something suddenly struck me. Among many good qualities in them, it was their "how are you" that made a huge different. How many times do we say "how are you?" and actually meant it? In many cases, we come together and say to each other "How are you today?" And the answers are most likely to be "Good, thank you" or "Fine" No matter how terrible we may feel, that's just seems to be the right and polite answer. The 'how are yous' are often only perfunctory and we seldom listen for a response. Not many people, including myself, say that simple line with a heart. SL and Jo did. They look through the "Im fine" an...

Haven't been touching this blog for so long.. I must blame Facebook. Too busy with the status and all :) What's been happening lately? Nothing much sih... Expecting great things to happen this year onwards. Sitting here at Starbucks, waiting for Andi as usual.... too bad the person next to me talk too loud, it's disturbing! Anyway, seharian ngeliatin Andi menganalisa saham. Seru juga ngeliatin pergerakan naek turunnya. I can see myself sitting 6 hours a day doing that. Hari ini untung 85,000. Walo masih kecil, tapi saya senang! :) Anyway.. playing stocks seem to be the easy way out. It's just my way of justifying myself. Life is rather dead or unproductive lately. Oh it was so hard to wait and sit still. I feel as though God moved and lost my address. Im struggling with this feeling of abandonment. On the other side, i feel as though Im about to burst inside. I get this sense that something wonderful is about to happen, but i dont quite know what it is. I can feel it mo...

It is perhaps a monumental probability that I've simply forgotten what has kept me here. Or evidently, what I have fought so hard for. What wind could be so strong, it banishes hundreds of acres of oaks, yet still ever so gentle enough to persuade even the most delicate of buds to move with, barely, an inch-long effort. My God, seeing kunyuk with that robe triggered something inside. I miss her. I know she'd worked soooo hard to be where she is now. I miss those moments. Though I must admit, maybe, just maybe... Im not running for the same dream anymore. The passion still there, ... it's just become a smaller part of me. Could I have waited this long, and demolished five full years of emotional barricade? Nah. I've walked too far to even think of steeping back. What faith could have, so morbidly, left my judgement impaired? The first scar may be the deepest, but a scar is a scar. ... and one left to bleed without stitches is bound to come undone. Tapi guess what? Im hea...

Lagi demen (lagi) lagunya.. "A brand new daaaay, ... Jeremy and feliciaaaaa we'll have a beautiful house ... With .....Apple trees... I know it sounds too much, but this is a brand neeeeeewww daaaayyy" Hihihi... Gara2 abis dengerin iPod di mobil ucok. lagunya di-shuffle.. dulu sempet sering bgt denger lagu itu. ... Been a while.... Nyetir super ati2 tadi. belon biasa bawa city, meni itu jalanan padet bener. Sukseslah jalan pake gigi 2 doang. uda kaya kuya... Selasa... datanglah cepat. tak sabar rasanya.. Oalaaah, td di kantor dikerubutin orang. lantaran tamu2 gw hari ini the so-called selebriti semua. Wong orang HRD sempet2-nya nungguin sampe 2 jem! sinting. Gw mah bodo amat.. Ga peduli mereka pesohor.. Artis2 panasonic award pada pre-departure briefing tadi. jd meeting deh ama mereka. sekalian jumpa pers.... Td sempet ngobrol lama ama Tantowi Yahya. down to earth juga. Ama sapa lg ya tadi? Anjasmara, Olga, Indra Bekti, Eko Patrio, Feni ros, hmm.. Saha deui ya...