The Me Inside....

It's been 361 day since the day I got married. Lagi liat2 my blog last year , pas udah deket2 mo merit... busset, ternyata gw sempet stress juga yeee. hihihi... lucunya dirikuuu :) It's a good thing that I keep record of what's going on in my life. ... Im glad that Im one who writes, blogging and diary-ing. I can reflect and learn from my own life... I laughed and cried when I read my own story of life... It was a huge step from there to here. ... from 14 June 1998 till 29 September 2006. And now, we'll be having our first anniversary in few days. We'll take a moment off our busy schedule and take time to reflect and celebrate. Pas lagi liat2 blog yg lama, lagi baca2 diary juga.... Ternyata Tuhan itu baiiiik banget ya. From the moment of my salvation on February 7, 1999 till now Ternyata I've been through A LOT with Him. Gw bener2 di 'proses', ditempa,..... Through all the ups and downs, and I can see that I grew up. Huhauhauha..... not a moment in my li...

This, is gonna be another random post... Drove home alone today. ... it felt soo damn goood! :) I understand now why SL said she loves driving. I love driving alone too! *but ofcourse, my driving skill is much better then SL* It gives me lots of "me" time. A time when I can have it all for myself. ... somehow it gives me peace of mind. Listened to my old U|X Band CD, cranked the volume up and just sang along like nobody business. God forbid, I sang waaaay out of tune and.... loud! And I mean, WAAAAYY OUT OF TUNE! and I mean LOUUDD! hehehe, but then... it was only me and God, so yeah :) I texted SL yesterday, I miss her. Heaps. She always make me feel better. Always. It seems like, she always say the right thing at the right time. Im trully blessed... wherever I go, God sent someone to look after me. I have SL in Malaysia, I have Jo in NZ, I have many in Indo. What more can I ask for? :) Talked to bugem on the phone this morning. ... she's getting married in less then 2 we...

Tadi pagi bangun jam 5... trus mandi, trus leha2 lagi, sempet ketiduran lagi 15 menitan. Then off me go to tennis court. ... surprisingly, ni ari stamina gw cukup bagus. Ga cape2, pdhal udah mukul sekenceng2nya tadi. Sparing ama Pa' Sarmada.... tu orang biar uda tua n lg puasa teteep aje kuat. Stamina gw sih tadi kuaat, but my thumb is killing me. ... almost got a blister, makanya agak perih kalo mukul kenceng2. Belon puas sih tadi maennya. Lagi pengen maen..... Apalagi ya? trus sempet ke rumahnya Mitzy juga, ... numpang makan supermi sebungkus n makan rujak. Setelah kenyang, off me go ke mal gading. Janji ketemuan ma si San2 jem 12, tu anak nongol ampir 1/2 3! Ganti senar raket tadi... jadi tambah pengen maeeen deeh.. harusnya raketku tercinta jadi enak banget dipakenya. Fell in love sama raket Wilson yg warna biru-nya "GUE" banget, ada grafir bunga dikit di pinggirannya... haranya? ampir 3 juta...... pengeeeenn. Sabar ya kendi... sabbaar... Btw, uda lama banget ga golf...

Sometimes, just sometimes.... friendship fails. ... and when it does, it pierced you inside.... then out . Yes. You dont even know it hurts. You dont even know :(

.... because even when friendship failed, you're the one that stays. At the end of all things, .... be rest assured that you have my heart. All of it. I heart you :) Heaps.

Selamat deh yg pulang lewat Casablanca, .... pasti muaacceeet buanggeeett. Secara besok kan puasa, pasti banyak yg nyekar ke kuburan situ. Duuuh, Sooo much thing I aspire to. Sooo much yg belon tercapai. Can we really have it all in this life time ya? Here I am, putting all my faith on the table. Perhaps, I could rest my head on something real. Jalan2 ke Eropa lagi yuuukk.

Siiip!! Way to go! Five thumbs up! Good job! Well done!! FINALLY! We've got some celebrity with a REAL brain inside! Am watching this Mamamia Show, and salah satu penyanyinya pake burung dara sebagai 'aksesoris'. Standard orang indo yang ga ada otak! Tu burung dimasukin kotak kecil gitu... kan kasian... Komen pertamanya Sophia, dia bilang : " saya terganggu dengan burungnya... lain kali plis jangan bawa2 binatang, kasian. Saya ga mau liat ada binatang disakiti " Woo-hoo! Finally ada juga orang yg punya conscience kalo binatang itu makhluk idup! Ada satu sinetron tolol ttg monyet... gw liat cuplikannya, disitu ada anak kecil yang mukul monyet pake kemoceng. And they make it as though it's a funny thing. What the hell?!?!?!!! Itu kan sama aja meng-convey message ke semua orang (anak2 terutama) kalo it's okay to hurt animal. GOBLOK! Belon lagi acara reality show waktu itu... sinting! Buat membuktikan kalo alkohol cap tikus itu keras, mereka pake anak anjing! ...

Had a lousy day yesterday. Been sick the whole friggin' night and day, uda lamaaa ga sakit, sekalinya sakit langsung sekarat gitu. Sampe kepikiran polis asuransi.. heuhuhe.. Jadi mikir, kalo gw mati gimana... kan polisnya belon di issued and stuff. huehuahuha.. tolol. Sekarang udah feel much much better, tinggal lemes n sakit perut yg on and off gitu. Anyway, Dimitris came yesterday. My cousin from Greece. Temen 'bandel' waktu jaman2 SMP dulu. ... maen roller jem 4 pagi dari buaran ke gading... pake roller blade! Kalo dipikir2 gw sinting n nekat banget euy. Dia liburan disini till 28th Sep. Dateng sama pacarnya, Magdalini. I like the girlfriend. She's sooo nice. Si Dimitris juga has a nice set of abs.. heuhuehu.. kayaknya 6 packs, secara dia baru kelar wajib militer disono. Tar ah, kalo gw uda ga malu2 mo gw liatin perutna. kakakakkaaaakk Tapi tu anak a bit short sih as a bule yah.. dandanannya si keren lah... standard bule yg cuek2 gitu. Tatonya si jeleeek banget... ba...

The sky shed it tears today, it brought my memory back to Albert Park back in Auckland. In days like this, I normally 'talked' to God in that park. Pouring my heart out. At this present days, there's not much differences. Here I am, listening to my iPod at Starbucks, looking out the windows, watching the fountain, ... and surprisingly.... today is freezing cold! *ya lah... AC-nya nyemprot langsung ke gw!* ...... Pouring my heart out to the Big Dude up there. God, My little brain seems to wander around again. This time, my thoughts went to a super-casual conversation in that room. Didn't think about that convie till earlier this week. I owe someone an apology. Big time. Everybody has regrets and everybody deserves a second chance. ... and Im sorry for blaming him all these times. I know I never said that audibly, but at the back of my head... I know that I was blaming him. And I didn't realized that, the place means THAT much for him. Now I know that he misses that c...

Too much thing in my head. My mind is waaay over loaded that I dont feel like doing anything. Laper. Pengen sate kambing Mang Entis. Pengen haagen-dasz greentea, tp males keluar... pdhal ada satu bucket di kulkas. Mendadak lagi kangen banget ama SL. ... need her tonight. Really wish she's here. I miss Jo too. So very much. She's in the bahamas now, floating on her dream yacht. Lagi bete tonight. mood not good. good night.

I gasped with my jaw on my knees when I saw the new iMac. Look at these beauties!!!! Im sooo drooled! Monitornya sih ga terlalu beda jauh ama yg punya gw skrg, bedanya, the new iMac has an anodized aluminum frame and glass cover. And obviously... thinner. The monitor, I can still handle.. ... but the keyboard? .... my goodness.. Im speechless. super thin and so friggin' cool! That's like... a picture of perfection. Ga berani ke apple store dulu ah, ga kuaaatt kalo megang2 itu benda... andaikata Andi bisa gw gade'in, bakal gw gade'in dia di pegadaian. ....... demi one set of new iMac. I simply have to have this. duuh, andaikata duit gw uda ga berseri..... sabar ya nak.... sabbaaar..... Gila oh gila oh gila oh gillaaaaaa....

Agak bingung liat si mami. ... Some people are born with a natural ability to take care of others. Ya si mami itu salah satunya. Mulai dari taking care of me, bro, papi, oma, ..... even Piko n Kakah! Sekarang Piko lagi sakit... kayaknya urat sarafnya ada yg kejepit, jadi suka sakit bbrp detik gitu. Si mami yg paling telaten... tiaaap ari Piko dijemur pagi2, ditungguin sambil dipijitin n diajak ngomong. Terus tiap malem matanya di lap pake tisu. Kalo gw sih tiap saat juga ajak piko ngomong. ... kadang gw pijitin juga.... tapi beda ama mami... dia tuh bener2 yg tipe "ngerawat" gitu.. Hmm... beneran ga nurun ke gw bakatnya.

ACS has been approved by the Australian Government last Wednesday. God, could this be it? ... Im a bit anxious nih... agak takut buat berharap. Tapi sebelumnya, tengkyu banget nget ngeeeet! ACS-nya di approve tanggal 29 Agustus 2007. Peraturan baru mulai diberlakukan tanggal 1 September 2007! Duuh, Tuhaaan..... makasih banget yaaaa.... kalo ikut aturan baru, pasti lebih susah... kalo ikut aturan baru, belum tentu point-nya cukup. N good thingnya, biaya buat DIMIA kata Andi udah ditalangin dulu ama Om Gun. ... coz kita baru sempet nukerin dollarnya hari kamis kemaren. God, it seems to us that you started to clear the way. Im sooo thankful for that.. tapi agak takut nih buat berharap ke depannya... Jujurnya sih masih agak susah percaya kalo all these are really happening. Still a bit hard to believe that we're actually submitting the application. ... duuuuh, Tuhankuu bantuin yaaa ya yaaa ya ya yaaaaa... Help me, to overcome yg doubts. Tadi si Mervi sms lagi.. tu orang yaaah! Kalo sms...