The Me Inside....

I've learned that some people take everything for granted. That no matter how you look out for them, ... at the end, all they think about is how to safe their own ass. Though Im still learning to overcome the pains, But I've learned that at the end of all things, ... you may only see very few people who'd go all the way with you to the finish line. But life is an un-ending curves of learning. Some people are here to stray. Some people are here to stay. I know Im one who'd stay. One who'd go all the way for the people I love. but God, at this point of time, ..... I need a heart transplant! puh-leeessh *winks* Toodle doos! *curtsy*

Tau ga sih? I hadn't had time to write about this. ... but my baby niece was born last Sunday, the 25th. It's been a while since I really prayed so earnestly. .... it's been a while since the last time I raised my hands up and really bless someone. Know what? That tiny creature changed me in a way I can't explain. Really. Grow up well, little one.

Yep. Had a loooong one today. Physically battered, my legs are so sore I can't stand up straight, BUT! I had sooo much fun. It was honestly a blast. It's been a while. Thanks girls :)

Lappeeerrr!!!!

I think I hurt myself pas tenis tadi. I may have sprained my ribs' ligament. ... tiap tarik napas sakitnya ngujubileeee. Sama kaya ati gw. ... makin dipikir, gw jadi sedih. Dia cuma mikirin diri sendiri terus, herrraaan. Pengen banget bisa ga peduli lagi, tapi malah makin kepikiran. N tiap kali kepikiran ati jadi kaya dibesot2. Kenapa ya, ga sekalian aja dia ambil piso trus tusuk gw. Mendingan gitu... biar beres sekalian kan? Isn't she suppose to be my rock when I need her the most? Tapi dia malah act as if nothing happen, Usaha kek buat nyelesain masalah sampe ke akar2nya. Ah. Udalah. Let's just play the game.

I suppose, it would be grossly unfair to make judgment based on a moment's worth of frustration. After all you've done for me. And I suppose it's my turn now. You'll be okay. You'll be okay :)

I sat in the car with you. Listened to the radio like we always do on Saturday, changed channels every two minutes, and turned up the volume when they played songs that we know. The sky shed its tears, The rain. A metaphor of a brush, a brush that painted away our vision of the outside world, ... as though they didn't matter. And to be honest with you, nothing else did matter at that time. It was just you, and I, and the radio. Im so glad God unites us :)

Isn't it obvious that I'm a bit jittery on blogging today? hehehe.... just feel like blabbing. Sebenernya, Im a bit anxious. A bit thrill. A bit excited. A bit happy. A bit confuse. A bit dissapointed. A bit of that and a bit of this. Im currently eating a humongous piece of bacon which I bought at foodhall. Bacon helps me think. ... and regulate the blood system in my brain. Oh, and I swear this thing is like expiring soon. but it tastes alright. So whatever. Let's just hope it doesnt give me an extra dosage of moron-ization. ... its not like i dont have enough. huheuhua Hmmm... oh wells. I dont have anything in particular to blog about. No. Wait! ... actually.... I have too many things on my mind to blog about. ... I dont know which to blog first and how to convey them in words. or pictures. I think of like 10 things at a time I dont even know what im thinking about. Its either my brain is working too fast. ... or I just dont have the basic skills of thinking. however- im...

Jadi inget... hihihi, dulu waktu jalan sama temen kantor, ada yg kaget pas denger gw ngomong sama Andi di telpon. Kagetnya kenapa? .... simply karena gw ngomong sama Andi pake "elu-gw", dan bukan "aku-kamu". Katanya gw gila ngomong elu-gw ke suami. Huahuhauhua!! Ngakak deh gw... hihihi... orang2 indo tuh suka aneh2 ya. Gapapaaaa.... udah biasa diomongin orang. Yg penting, he is my love.. and I am his. .. with The Big Dude as our center of everything, Im sure we'll make it through. Yes, we had our highs and lows.. but all in all, it's trully a wonderful journey all together. As corny as this may sounds, Getting married means a promise. A promise made to be together for as long as we would, ... for as long as we could, ... for as long as God unite us until we vanished back to a speck of dust. *well, i wouldn't wanna be burried.. just cremate me!* It was an agreement made out of two conscious minds, ... involving a big faith that we will make it through, Ja...

OK, it's misuh-misuh time now... What the heck is wrong with all those people ya? Duuuh, God please enlarge my heart. Let me have a bigger heart. .. please help me! Those people are really getting on my nerves. Bener2 annoying ga puguh. Duuuh, kok dia kiasu banget ya? so what gitu? Jujurnya sih, gw pengeeeen banget ngadu ke Soo Lan. ... tapi no, if I do that... then gw ga beda dong sama dia? Aaarrgghh!!! I wish SL is here. Tuhaaan, let me be the bigger man. *misuh misuh lagi* O iya, by the way... This blog is MY blog, so I can write anything I want without having to give any explanation to anybody. I owe nothing to nobody *winks*

Capeek... today was somehow so draggy. Woke up early, went to office for a while, hit the court and sweat myself out. Felt good tadi... well, at least for the first 10 minutes. I hit the balls hard and precise. .. must admit, haven't played that well for sooo long. But it only last for about 10 minutes or so. Lost my stamina out of sudden, had cold sweat and decided to stop and rest. What else.. what else... Oh, visited baby Mitzy for a couple hours. That ding-dong baby is starting to crawl around. God knows Im not ready to have one my own!! buset daah.. pecicilan sana sini tu anak. .... honestly, she ain't the prettiest baby, but she surely has that "it" factor... the kind that simply makes you melt and adore her. And surprisingly, that tiny-little creature can reads!! Well, at least she recognizes letters.. she knows which one is "MAMI" and which one is "PAPI". Also "ENGKONG". Geez!! Quite amazing for an 11-months old. Thumbs up babe!

My iPhone has finally arrived! Yay! It's about time. After 5 years, it's time for my sweet Nokia 6100 to retired. I love my nokia still!!! Anyway, baby apple is the newest edition to my Apple family. ... and also the first female. The Apple siblings are : 1. Aldo, the 4GB iPod Nano 2. Apple, the 17" iMac 3. Little Apple, the 12" PowerBook G4 laptop 4. Baby Apple, the 4GB iPhone The Apple cousins (Ucok's) on the pics are : 1. Flacky, the 13.3" MacBook 2. the 'nameless' iPod classic 80 GB 3. the 'no-name' 8GB iPhone Well, too bad Im staying over at parents' ... can't show Apple the iMac on the photo. and I forgot to take Aldo along too :( Huahauhua.... Im being such a braggy brat. Im allowed! After being crowned as "a girl with the worst mobile phone" for 3 consecutive years, yes... I think Im allowed to show off a bit. 3 full years of mockery... .. but again, I LOVE MY NOKIA STILL!!! Blueiy is the apple of my eyes....