The Me Inside....

Many moons ago I had lots and lots to talk about. I suppose I can attribute that seemingly continuous flow of opinions to my youth, or my inexperience with life or maybe it was just me and my love for talking on paper. I used to be a very talkative person online. On the Internet, I've always been a very opinionated person, bulldozing my way to have my piece of mind heard, using this personal space to rant on relentlessly about my point of view - and during those really active years, it really didn't matter to me what people thought. These days, for some reason, I don't quite feel the need to be so insistent about expounding my opinions anymore. I mean, I'm still me. And some things do get me riled up and I speed along to Twitter to drop off my piece of mind – but those moments just aren't that frequent anymore. Even on those social platforms, I log on with something important and urgent I intend to say, but as I type and attempt to frame my thoughts into 140 c...

2 days in a row gw ngimpi ada di Auckland! Nunggu bus 223 jurusan New Lynn, nyegat di halte symond street! Hiiihhhh! Gemmmeeessss...... Tuhaaaan, kita bisa dapet ga ya PR-nya? Duuuh. Ga sabar pingin cepetan deeeeee.

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Onya is 1!! Well, benernya sih dia uda ampir 13 bulan sekarang. Tadinya kita gak mau pesta. Tapi bulan Maret we decided to throw a party. Reason was, well, awalnya my parents yg insisted kalo ke 1 harus pesta. Dan the fact that bulan maret dapet BBM dari my cousin. Isinya "Dis, kata mami juli onya pesta ya? Kita pasti dateng dari Cicurug untuk pesta Onya" Gw langsung ngakak... Hahahhahaha, kayanya jadi pesta nih. Terus itu pesta lebih buat celebrate 1 year as parents sih, Karena onyanya juga belum ngerti kan. Mulailah cari2 tempat. Dari yg awalnya mau di Pizza Marzano, trus pindah ke Marche. Abis Marche, ahirnya diputusin buat pesta di Miniapolis Plaza Indonesia. Budget-pun membengkak sebengkak2-nya. Tapi makin deket harinya, kita makin super excited. Apalagi si Abo juga ikutan excited. Seneng aja, temen baik bela2-in terbang dari Bali buat pesta Onya (walo emang pas deketan ama ultah mertuanya.) Disini keliatan bgt mana yg family beneran, sama family2-...

Cerita dan ulasan setaonannya nanti aja. Skrg mo ngomel dulu. Onya!!! Yg bener aja kamuuu! Dari jam 3 melek seger! Kan besok daddy kerja! Mami keseel sama Onya malem ini. Mami tau kamu uda jago bediri, uda mulai jalan. Mami is undoubtedly super proud of you. Tapi NOT at the crack of dawn gini dong!!! Mami abis omelin Onya. Onya nangis minta gendong. Gak! Drtd uda digendong, Onya malah tambah seger. Kamu sangka mami ngajakin kamu maen! Ga bole gitu doong. diomelin, bukannya bobo malah bediri2 lagi! Diomelin lagi, kamu ngasih mami senyum manis gituu. Ati mami meleleh tau ga! Pingin cepet2 meluk n unyeng2 kamu! Tapi gaaakkk! Mami NOT giving in to your smile! Hayo bobo!!! Eeeehh, kamu malah minta 'bantuan' daddy. Kamu manggil "daddy" dengan nada dan suara yg bener2 jelas dan super cute. Ati mami udah bukan meleleh lagi, udah sampe tahap bernyenye saking lembeknye. Hadooooohhh!! Tapi no no nooo! Daddy juga NOT giving in. Hayo bobo lagi...

Yes. I'm adding hot air baloon ride on my bucket list. I sooo want it!!!!

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Uda ampir seminggu ini bobonya acak2-an pisan kalo malem. Bangun ampir tiaaaaaap jaaam. Kenapa ya? Camnya either mo numbu gigi, or lagi ngimpi ngerondang. Hiikks!! Mami ngantuuuuuuukkkkkk. Onya is 10 months old now. Makannya uda ga disaring dan ga di blender. Udah ga diuwek2 jadi satu, udah ditata rapi dipiring. Pagi2 begitu melek mata, all I can think abt is: "onya makan apa ya hari ini?" Mungkin gw kudu bikin menu mingguan aja kali ya. Semua yg berhubungan sama makan, gw siapin sendiri. Mulai dari beli bahan, masak, nyuapin. Paling kalo weekend Andi yg suapin. Dan kalo lagi ada nyokap, nyokap yg suapin. 30 taoon baru nih gw saban ari ke dapur. Masak. Walo masaknya masih super cupu, Cuma sebates cemplang cemplung n motong2. Kemaren sukses bikin nasi tim. Aaahh! Gitu aja bangga luuu hueheuheu. Laaah, gw kan boro2 ya masuk dapur dulu2 hihihi. Pokonya di kulkas tuh selalu sedia pisang! Just in case masakan gw gagal hihihih Belakangan jg jadi demen jajal2. Minggu lalu nyoba biki...

Dear Onya, Today - May 21, 2011 - at 12.30 pm, Mami and Daddy will officially dedicate you to Jesus. We will put our hearts together to pray for you, darling girl. Ps. Jose Carol, the one that officiated Mami and Daddy's wedding, will be there to lay his hands on us. Not a single day passed without me saying a prayer for you Onya. Doa mami even dari sebelum you were born, that you will be happy and healthy - that God will give you wisdom to make the right decision everyday of your life. You know, Mami bahkan uda berdoa buat jodoh kamu :) Mami berdoa that you will marry a man who loves God, who loves you and of course - whom you love too. Mami prays that you will have a simple, uncomplicated love-life like mine. Okay, bukan Mami namanya kalo ga mikir (ke)panjang(an) - I have also been praying for your child(ren)... That proses hamil n persalinan kamu will be easy and you and your husband will have all the wisdom to raise your child(ren). So one day, just in case I'm not around a...

Onya looks similar with Abo's drawing. She drew that waaaay back in 1996/1997, claiming "I predicted your child's face" *krik krik kriiikk*

Onya says: Here goes one of my mamih's wittiness. I am the 'victim'... *sigh* Sent from my BlackBerry® powered by Sinyal Kuat INDOSAT

With uncle Ucok n cici ubi. And ofcourse, another new hat of mine

I ride Choo Choo with my dad and cuzzie, Cici Ubi

This is me and my Ama. My mami is having this new-found obssession of buying hats for me these days.

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3 freakin days with VERY LITTLE sleep can make u go insanely cranky! No. It is NOT the baby. She's been sleeping so well with only a couple of occasional feedings. Apparently I sleep with a diesel machine! Ngoroknyeeee!!! I'm going crazy!! Kesseeeellllnyeee ampe ubun2! Keseeel!! I did ALL I could mulai dari belai pelan2, tepok2, geplak, sambit, gebuk bantal, tendang, maki2 (sambil bisik2 so I don't wake onya)... Teteeeeeppp aja ngorok! Bangun cuma like 2 seconds trus ngorok lagi! I'm in rage now! Keseellllll!!!!! Capppeee! Ngantuk! GUA MAU TIDUR!!!!!!!! Itu hak asasi!!!!!

Typed this last night. What a year it has been so far. The baby decided to come knocking. I finally experienced labour and survived to tell the story. I have a cuddly little adorable girl who goes 'uuuhh-aahh-auuuu'' everytime she wants milk and cramps up her lips and goes, 'hrrrrrmmmm … hrrrmmm…' everytime she passes a motion. I hardly speak about anything else except my daughter nowadays. To think that just a few years back I used to be totally puzzled as to why those 'mommy blogs' just talk about NOTHING but their kids. Hahaha. Now I get it. Totally! :) I noticed that in the past few months I've less of an opinion about everything under the sun, I'm less passionate about voicing my two-cents on how religion should be practised, I'm more introverted about my political leanings, and suddenly I'm no longer media savvy – which tells you a lot about how fast things change in this community. There were times when I questioned my sanity by quitti...

My baby is gonna be 9 months old nxt week. Time flies. It seems yesterday I just figured out abt my pregnancy. Onya makin bawel skrg. Udah bisa duduk unsupported, udah bisa bediri (walo masi didiriin), uda bisa shake hand, bisa tos, bisa give mami a hug, bisa ngomel, bisa cembetut, bisa ngerti kalo diomelin pas ga mao bobo di car seat-nya. Life has never been the same since Onya. My priorities are no longer revolve around me. In fact, I only bought myselft 2 bajus in 9 months! Before Onya came into my life I would be eye-ing pretty clothes and Gucci handbags *my guilty pleasure* and planning when and how to buy them. Now I get out, with the intention to buy somethings to add to my wardrobe...... and then I walk past Mothercare or Baby Gap or Zara Baby or even baby section in Carefour!..... and all the plans to buy clothes to keep my own wardrobe updated dissipate. Next thing I knew, I was walking around the aisles, looking at prams, and bottles and teats and feeding bowls and spoons, ...

That's what I feel today. Anxious. Excited. Nervous. Hopefull. Scared. Happy. Uneasy. Restless. Relax. Gratefull. Numplek. Jadi satu. God, How I wish there's an anwer for every single question. How I wish everything is as definite as all rivers run into the sea. How I wish there is no complication in the equation. Don't ever let go. Ever.

It's past midnigth and here I am, staring blankly at the screen. I've one too many things in my head that I find it difficult to pick one to blog about. .... .... .... I change my mind. Not gonna blog tonight. I need to 'empty' my mind. Im gonna watch Private Practice. Good night.

Yep. Been hearing a lot about people dropped dead suddenly. Mulai dari si Adjie Masaid, babenya si Joshua, then just now Emma's friend juga Dadaism died of heart attack. She was 29 years old, just got ,arrayed last October. Life is so fragile. That's why I really hate Andi each time I have to remind him over and over again about healthy lifestyle. Anyway, decided to make a bucket list for myself. 1. Back to NZ 2. Sky dive 3. Vacation to Russia 4. Having more than enough funds for Onya to pursue her degree in England, Oxford University preferably :) 5. Ngeliat Andi punya bodi keren 6. Buying a house for my parents 7. Karet tengsin dijual Hmmm....... Belon kepikiran yg lawn. Nanti di update lg deh