The Me Inside....

Thursday, 15/12/16 I stayed at home whole day yesterday. Practically my first full day at home after a week in the hospital. Still wasn't feeling great.  For once, I let Onya watch TV for couple hours. It's her first day of school holiday anyway, and I literally had no energy to play with her as usual.  So I cut us some slack.  I let her watch all her series, and I just laid on the couch watching with her. I fixed her breakfast and lunch. Prepared some snacks, and continue to be a couch potato.  Onya did have a break from TV though. I asked her to write a card for her friend Soairse who is battling cancer.  She drew a couple pictures too. She asked me whether Omar can come over and play. I said no. I really, really wasn't feeling well yesterday. I don't think I can handle a playdate.  Then she played with her dinosaurs. Then we watched Disney's Dinosaur movies, where I get to close my eyes for 10 minutes trying to ease the headache. Then I had a diclofenac ...

Just got home today after spending 7 long days in the hospital again.  This one was by far the worst.  My bad sih kali ini.  All started about 2 weeks ago with what I suspected as a simple urine infection. I had no symptom apart from funny-smelling urine in the morning.  Then I had on-off low grade fever for few days, but really nothing. It felt like I was about to have a cold, that was all.  I honestly brushed it off my mind. I mean, I had enough. I just got back to work after 3 weeks off. I had a very productive week. Im about to go on holiday..... so no. Im not gonna see Shona for common cold. Or so I thought.  But I guess God loves me so much. Out of the blue, ga ada angin ga ada ujan - Monday 5 Dec Shona phoned me.  She was just checking to see how Im doing, coz few weeks ago I complained about my blurry vision post-op.  And after being stubborn and told her that I'll see an optometrists next year (coz I've had enough seeing specialist this y...

Okay, so I obviously do NOT want to jinx it..... but strangely, my first 3 days of coming back to work is not too bad. To the contrary..... I feel that Im more productive these 3 days compared to the last 2 months. Weird. Scary at the same time too. I'm practically on my own now, with one of manager had been made redundant and the other one is declining her contract extension. (she's not even here today, and noone knows where she is). The two Management Accountants are.... well, out of reach. One has a major personality problem..... the other one is drawning with work and he has to make decision whether he wants to stay or move to other DHB. Then one of my colleague is taking a sick leave for 3 weeks. I honestly do not know how am I going to cope on my own next week. I literally have noone to ask if I don't understand something. I kept saying in my head "mampus dah".......  tapi as per this very second, I still haven't made up my mind whether gw m...