Never would I ever thought that getting through Christmas would be this difficult. Too much social things happening, and I beat myself up for turning every-single-one of it down. Di kantor udah dikenal as a wuss when it comes to any social gathering (yes, as much as I love my Team... 2,5 taon gw kerja bareng mereka, I never once showed up to any of the gathering - which is like once a fortnight!). They never stop inviting me, which is a good thing? But it gets harder and harder finding an excuse. It’s especially hard during this period. They’re inviting me to their home, so our families can meet. And those friends like Fee yg nyuruhin dateng buat natalan. And them Indonesians yg ngadain BBQ. Andi and Onya went to the BBQ and gw dirumah dong. Trust me, I tried. Bukannya bedegong ga nyoba... it’s just ngebayangin beheha behehe tanpa juntrungan... ah. Seems so kosong. So shallow. Too much deh buat gw. The aftermath is not worth it for my mental being. This world is ...
A chronic introvert and a dreamy idealist.