The Me Inside....

About Jakarta Praise Community Church So blessed that JPCC is my home church. After a long search of finding a church, I finally found one that I can really called home. I finally found a church who dropped all the formalities , dropped all the suit and tie, and dare to be who they really are. Pastors are so cool. They wear torn jeans, t-shirt and Jose even danced like Justin Timberlake on the pulpit!! We dont have service this Sunday, December 31st. Reason? they gave holiday for the full-time workers so they can spend time with their family. Now, which church would do that?? Bukannya natal n taon baru justru saat2 dimana kebanyakan gereja lomba2-an bikin perayaan gede2an? They said the full-time workers have been working all year long, Monday - Friday 9-5. Saturday they have conferences and Sunday they have 4 church services. They don't really have time to be with their family. So, from 25 Dec - 6 Jan is a holiday for them. Fair enough. Ga terikat formalitas. They really think o...

Fact # 101 My dreams are colourful. I can literally taste and smell food in my dreams.

There are so many random stuffs in my head. The insomnia came back, the itch came back, all the bad stuff came back! I hate the world. My life is nothing but heartache and I feel sorry for myself. As pathetic as that may sound, but that's what Im feeling now. Im in so much anger and bitterness, so I guess Im allowed to say whatever I wanna say. I need my fix. People will say that I need God. But guess what? Maybe, just maybe.... God is not always there for you. Perhaps God enjoys watching you suffer. To make you stronger, He'd say. Well maybe I dont wanna be stronger!!! Maybe I enjoy being weak so that He'd look out for me! Maybe He's being a wee bit too tough on me. Gosh! In moment like this, I need Soo Lan more then anybody. I need someone strong enough to scold me without having to judge me! Im turning into a bad person. Maybe I never was a good person. I hate me.

Dear God, It's me, signing in. I watched the show for almost 1 hour. And it hurts. Seeing that marvelous city pierced my heart. The pain is so real... I can still feel it now. I should've been there. That is my promised land. My Canaan. They ran around Queen Street and Viaduct Basin. I saw the new train station. They were building it when I left. And and... Sky Tower.. gosh! I remember every step, I remember the bus stop! And the sea.... geez! I can smell it. Miles away from home, I can still smell the sea. They were at the verry port. They went to Devenport. I was in Devenport with Adi last time. I had ice cream. God, I didn't know it was gonna be this painful. I really didn't. I left something undone there. I just have to go back. I just have to. Im not finished yet. You are not finished, God. I know You're not. I know. Time doesn't heal. No, it never does.... not for me. Time is like..... bandaids. It's not there t...

Another Purple Sky in Her Eyes. The city lights went out, Just like every other night. There's no storm, no hail... Not even a whispering wind to say good night. But in this silence my heart has spoken. Loud, and clear. Me. My iMac. And my scottie collections. And the rest of the world sleeping. I think I've finally found my way home. Maybe. :)

My New (and not so new) Toys... Introducing Weebo the cacah. He's a brand new swift, but was hit twice by those morron motorbikers. Admitted him to a car-hospital and he looks brand new again now. I wanted a black one, but mami n andi wanted a silver one... darn it. ... I think my Weebo need to do some tanning. I want a black one.. *but love it still though* Meet Aldo the second generation iPod Nano, pressie from bro. Just bought him a blue leather case yesterday. Cost me a bomb, but he looks really cute on it. Now this, is Appie and her friend, Pintie the printer... my costly investment. They're gonna help me make a fortune next year (amiiinnn) Just me trying to kill some times... I miss piri today. Somehow. hmm...