The Me Inside....

Lagi ngeliatin Andi golf. ... Sambil mikir. I need present. yes, future will be bright. .... but present brightness is also needed. Duuh otak! stop mikir!

always "besok ya... " always "mau, tapi...... " always "sabar ya...." always "jangan sekarang... " always "now cannot..." always "I will..... "   always future tense, never present. sigh.   Tuhan, I just want one decent day without me having to initiate everything.

Sabtu kemaren gw jaga booth di Pesta Blogger 2008. It was a long, tiring yet rewarding day.   Me being me, jadi mikir deeeh.. Jalan hidup seseorang itu ga bisa ditebak. Look at me. ... Siapa sih gw?   Beberapa taun yg lalu, I was just a kid yg too afraid or too shy buat pesen es teh di restoran. gw masih inget how I struggle buat masuk restoran sendiri. it took me literally 2 hours mondar mandir di depan restoran. .... Ngeberaniin diri buat masuk n makan sendiri.   A kid who got very sick saking stress-nya pas musti Job Training. A kid yg would rather ate crackers at the locker room (sometimes bahkan makan di WC) dibanding musti makan di kantin sendiri. A kid yg..... berusaha break her own hand cuma supaya bisa skip training. THAT extreme loh jaman dulu... saking takutnya ketemu orang, I would rather break my hand. (of course, I didn't break my hand. I tried, but not enough guts liao.... tolol banget deh) Sekarang? My joy is when I can spen...

Im not good in saying good bye. Ada satu bapak2 disini, … namanya Pak Rusmin. Udah tua n bejenggot putih. I've only known him for a little less then 3 months. Tiap hari, dia selalu greeted me. "Pagi cantik… "   tanpa ada sedikitpun keganjenan. All I see is a genuine, sincere old man.   Hari ini pak Rusmin pensiun. … after 37 years of service. Seddiiih de liat dia beres2. Dia rapihin semua buku, … tadi gw mergokin dia lagi termenung sambil elus2 buku di gudang. Duuuh….   All the best ya pak.. Moga2 ke depannya lancar semua…. Moga2 sehat selalu….

Lagi pengen groceriiees.. besok blanja blinji aaaaaahhhhh.. either ke kem-chick atau ke foodhall senayan city.. pengen beli haaammm pengen liat2 aaaaaaaa   pengen pulaaaang

Kept thinking today's Friday. .. but it's nooottt.. huhuhuu....   lagi ga mut ngapa2in. .. cuman lagi pengen ngeblebeb aja. bleha blehe depan tipi, jadi couch potato searian... enak kali yah...   Semalem duniaku bergetar... literally. jam 1-an rasanya, tiba kebangun and perasaan kayak gempa gitu. tapi kayanya si kaga, soalnya gw liat botol aer kok aernya tenang2 aja. Ih! ga demen deh yg freaky2 gitu.. hiiiiii   ga puguh.   aaaaaaaaaa... saya mau pulaaaannngggg

Jadi kepengen nyobain naek Limo Bike deh.. just for fun aja... kayaknya enak juga. Review dari bule2 yg kemaren nyewa sih katanya enaaak banget. Itu motor piaggio baru, trus ada GPS-nya.. trus ada speed trackernya, jadi ga bisa lebi dari 60k/h trus helm-nya bersih (secara semua diwajibin pake disposable shower cap) ga mahal juga... kemaren sewa 15 jem Rp. 270,000. ... berarti kalo sekali jalan doang yaa harusnya lebi mura dari taksi. lucu juga kali yeee... koneng kinclong gitu.

Officially ga suka ama si item. sebbeeeeeelllll!!!! Huh! muka sama jamban ko masi bagusan jamban.. ama ketek masi aseman muka.. buset daah.. ngemil cuka mulu kali ! Uuh... officially dont like him!  

Let me express my freedom of expression!   I thought komunitas blogger Indonesia itu banyak orang inteleknya. tapi ternyata masih a ddaaaa aja orang2 yg amazingly ga puguh!   (walopun thankfully sebagian besar masih orang2 intelek sih)   Tgl 22 nanti ada Pesta Blogger 2008. Major sponsornya US Embassy... ternyata adddaaaa aja orang2 yg anti-amerika yg mau ngeboikot acaranya gara2 US Embassy yg sponsorin. ada yg bilang ga mau dateng lah, ada yg bilang intniya 'kok logo US Dept. of state adanya paling atas, sedangkan departemen2 indo dibawah?'   Dogh! dude!! For once... BACA!! BACA!! Kenapa diatas? ya karena emang tulisannya "SPONSORED BY!" sedangkan departemen2 dlam negeri itu cuma sekedar mendukung, alias under "SUPPORTED BY!" ga kuar duit, ga kasi2 goodies! AARRGGHH!!!   udah bagus disponsorin..   Dont get me wrong yah, gw ga super pro-amrik kok. gw juga kadang2 sebel ama orang amrik.. tapi gw juga ga anti-amrik dengan alesan2...

Dear IO Team,   I just wanted to say how proud I am of you all.  Today we pulled together and successfully ran one of Embassy Jakarta's most complex and challenging media events in memory, managing to earn tremendously positive coverage.  It was a lot hard work, and all of you put in extra hours and dealt with seemingly impossible tasks, but the results speak for themselves.  The entire Embassy was impressed by you, and I heard praise for our section from nearly every single other Embassy section today -- and especially from the Front Office.  Each and every one of you should feel the satisfaction of a job well done. Thank you for your excellent teamwork today and for making the Information Office looks so good.   Sincerely,   Tristram ----------------------   Hihihihi... a little appreciation from our boss. Something I've NEVER heard from Baskaran. Yg gw inget dari si baski cuma : "Im a fucking CFO, you know"   (yes, he did say...

Hari ini lembur rasanya. … dingiiiin… oh dingiiiinnn….   The whole family and the driver lagi di Bandung sekarang. Tak ada yg menjemputkuh. Pulang naek taksi aja deh. Lagi males haha-hehe soalnya.   LAGIAN mo pulang buaran aja, Ada dvd yg belon ditonton. … udah mulae keranjingan nyewa DVD, Daripada beli bajakan, mending sewa yg original. Tidak menyalahi aturan.   Shiieeett! Ini teh Tong Tji ko rasanya amit2 banget yee.. Puaiit-nya aneh gitu plus ada aroma2 ga jelas. Hiii.. PLUS 15 menit setelah minum langsung pengen e-e. Jangan2 teh pelangsing!?!?   Ga jelass.. sakit peruuutttt

Prepare my heart, Lord. Expand my capacity. Thank You for the chance. .... for the passion. .... for the people. By heart, by soul, that is how I want to know You. Wanna see Your love unfold, keep You as close as breath is to life. Im ready for more.