The Me Inside....

Postingan kali ini buat Andi. Feel so blessed beyond words punya suami kaya beliau. Walo banyak rese n nyebelinnya juga. He works really hard. I mean REALLY hard. I know I've complained about him being too busy, but lately he changed. Yes, dia masih sibuk banget di kantor. Yes, dia masih suka 'nyetrap' gw di mobil suru tunggu. Tapi I know that family is his top priority. The house is almost done. Andi spent hours last Sat and Sun buat bebersih rumah. Gw ga boleh ikut. "masih debuan banget" - gitu katanya. He knows Im allergic to dust and frankly, what can a pregnant woman possibly do? Ga mungkin juga kan gw ngangkat2 furniture. Naek tangga aja suka engap. Dapet laporan dari Otoy, Andi ngangkat2 barang ampe mukanya merah, ampe kringetan ngeces2... Gw tau dia pasti cape banget. Tapi begitu pulang he brought nothing but his big, warm smile. "Udah. Nanti gw sekali lagi kesana, finalize bersih2 - then you can come. Tuh gw beliin kelapa, mau diminum sekarang ga?...

Cape de ngadepin orang2 kepo ga puguh. Kenapa sih?? Ga ada urusan sama elu kali gw mo ngapaiiin. Die beli gonta ganti mobil berkali2, gw ga peduliii. Die ngurus anak kayak pegimana, gw ga peduliii. Die mo dapet bonus puluhan juga, gw ga peduliii. Die ga jadi pindah kerja, gw ga peduliii. Dear God, I really, really, REALLY need a bigger heart!!!! Ini mulut udah gateel pengen maki2 dia! Udah gatel pengen ikutan ngejelekin dia! Udah gatel pengen kasih tau SL tentang 'borok' dia! Tapi tidaak!!! Gue ga mau kaya dia! GA MAU!!! Hati, pikiran, and kapasitas gw KAGA sekecil dan sesempit dia!!!! Gue kaga sirik! ... simply because Im secure with my life. Im secure with what I have now. Im happy that we have our own house, walo jauhnya sebujeng2! Im loving my little, humble car walo ga sekeren mobil dia. Im glad I can give kualitas yg terbaik (yg gw sanggup) buat anak gue! Terseraaah dia mau ngabisin ratusan juta buat mobil. I chose buat spend a little more money for the buggy for my son. ...

After literally months of thinking, asking, considering, and almost giving up with Quinny Buzz.... Out of nowhere this beauty just popped up. So, baby S. got his buggy already :) Got it last Sunday from The Children's Store. (secara harganya cuma beda 117 ribu ama mangdu) Aah... leggaa.... Aku sukkaa. Andi sukaaa. Baby S. juga suka dong yaaaa :) Btw, baby S. been kicking a lot. Especially last saturday. Biasanya jam 9.30 udah diem, ga gerak2 lagi. Dah bobo kalo kata bapake. Tapi sabtu kemaren Andi nonton bola. Trust me... Baby S. stayed awake (and kicking and punching HARD) sampe almost midnight. Sampe rada diomelin, disuruh bobo... belon boleeeh nemenin Andi nonton bola sampe malem gituuu. Tar kalo uda gede baru boleee...

One experience exclusive to pregnant women is the feeling and sight of involuntary movements across the surface of my belly. People've been telling me that later I'll see the distinct outline of an elbow jutting out from the side, and then probably discuss with Andi whether it was an elbow, or a knee... or maybe head? A friend from Malaysia told me that when she got pregnant with her firstborn, after spending about 15 minutes napping on her right, she woke up with a lopsided belly, where the right side of her waist was bigger than the left. Her baby probably slid to the right, and stayed there for a bit even after she woke up. She said, 'why are you there?' and then she felt some shuffling INSIDE of her — voila! A perfectly symmetrical belly all over again. Being pregnant is strange. .... but Im loving it a whole lot! :) And no, I still haven't gotten over that bursting belly button fear. Udah makin ceper nih udelkuuh! hiks! Anyway, stra...