The Me Inside....

Baby girl is a little over 23 months old now. Bawelnya adjubileeh *im happy, not complaining at all* She can literally talk for hours without stopping. Lucu. Dia masi suka mikir kalo mau ngomong. Jadi masih suka diulang2. Sama ada pause-nya gitu. Went to her first wedding reception last Saturday. She had fun meeting my friends. Sepanjaaaang jalan pulang pegi ngoceeeehhh aja. Anteng di carseat-nya sambil maen iPad n ngoceh. Kayanya onya ini tipe yg meng-observe dulu. Karena dia gak langsung jump happily to anybody. Dia akan diem, observe, and as if she's making decision to like a person or not. She obviously likes Francis, secara dia bisa rangkul2 senyum2 gitu. She doesn't like Verry. Gak mau sama sekali deket2. Ini sih kayanya ngaruh sama my feelings towards that someone juga sih hihihi. Anak gua bgt daaah! :) These days I can talk on and on about Onya. Can hardly believe she'll be wearing uniform in a month! How time flies. ------ Mami lg di Korea and for the first ti...

Helo blog, It's me, checking in. I'm on my camping ground again... Got nothing to do apart from blogging. At exactly 22 months, weaning process went really well today. I told Onya my nipple hurt. Dia tetep minta nenen tp I told her ga bole isep, nenennya sakit. Jd dia cuma nempelin pipinya aja. Pas dia mau isep, I reminded her that nippie lagi sakit. Then she said "gapapa... Pipi aja" Trus dia blow a kiss ke si nenen. She asked for a hug and she said "tutup nenen" Aaah... My heart melt. Even from a very young age, I know my daughter has a very good heart. Anak baik. Terharu pisan gw. ---- Going Bandung early morning tomorrow. Hasrat shopping udah ga bisa dibendung heueheuhe. ---- Urusan tour ke Korea buat mami udah beres. Paid everything in full already. I'm blessed to be a blessing. ---- I haven't blogged about the update of our NZ PR application. Yes. We're making a progress. We got our WTR (Work To Residence). So all we gotta do now i...

Wonder why gw rajing nge blog lagi lately? It's because gw lagi "kemping" mulu. Tiap malem skrg dipisahin sama Onya, supaya dia gak bangun minta nenen mulu. I can't watch TV karena si onya kalo liat di depan terang dr bawah pintu kamar, dia minta kuar lagi. Saya ini penganut NO TV di kamar. Iya. Jd Andi and I agree kalo there can only be 1 TV in the house. (2 sih, tp 1 lagi dikamar pembantu). Tujuannya supaya we have more time as a family. Gak kaya kebanyakan keluarga these days yg anggotanya sibuk nonton TV di kamar masing2. Trus gw jg ga bisa maen iPad, krn iPad-nya suka dipake main onya sebelon dia bobo, jd tu iPad ada dikamar sebelah. So I'm left with my blackberry deh. Uda abis ngebacain statuus2 FB, twitter and berita. Masi belon ngantuk. Jadi ngapain dong gueee? Ya ngeblog deh. Today kalimatnya Onya nambah lagi. Panjang skrg ngomongnya, hari ini 2 kata. "Minum cow cow milk" Hahahahha... My baby is reallly growing up. Onya itu orangnya geli-an. Tad...

Baby girl has started talking two words. Her first two word was "babacip" = baa baa sheep and her vocabs seem to increase so fast in just one day. Tiba2 dia uda bisa bilang these words: Mami mandi Ello kiti Tiup lilin Bobopet = spongebob squarepants Kiki mos = mickey mouse Dedi kerja Bani pepel = Barney purple Kaut whait = cloud white Nek atas = naik atas Warna juga makin banyak taunya. Red, green, blue, orange, yellow, purple, black, white, grey, coklat. Wiih... Baby growing up so fast. Too fast! ----- Ooohh, went to Emma's yesterday. dia kan baru punya puppies, so I took Onya buat main sama anjing2 kecil itu. Hepiii deh Onya gak takut anjing. Santai aja belai2 walo rada kaget pas ditomplok. ----- Hari ini santai. Subuh dpt kabar gembira ttg "two stripes finally" Pagi banyak ngobrol sama Andi. From the moment I opened my eyes this morning, udah curhat. Pake2 acara mewek pula :) Told him intinya from time to times gw berasa kayak the first born in the parable of...

Setelah hiatus sekian lama, mau nulis lagi ah. Nulis apa? Hmmm.... Masi ga tau sih. Yg pasti si Onya ude gede skrg. uda 20 bulan and still nenen doong! Gimana ngeberentiin nenen ya? The kid seems so addicticted to it. Life in general is good, can be better but good. Masi nunggu PR. We had our final phone interview pas tl 20 maret. Nunggu lagi 6 weeks. Ya gitu de. Lg ga niat nulis benernya hihihih

January almost comes to an end. Wauuu... Kemana ya perginya waktu? Nothing much yg mau gw tulis. Cuma grateful aja. Liat si Onya makin gede, makin pinter, makin bawel, makin iseng... Uda berkeliaran sana sini, thank God she's not much of a climber. Bisa stress gua kalo dia demen manjat hahahaa Udah 18 bulan aja tu si onya. Bener2 ga berasa. Liat foto2 dia wkt masi bayi merah.. Aiih aiihhh... So tiny. Btw, musim hamil lagi nih. List of the preggers: - bugem - yenny - lusi - sisi - joyce - lindy - farin And pasti nanti ada lagi deh.... Kenapa ya kadang org hamil bisa bareng2an waktunya? Pas jaman gw juga banyak yg hamil. Do I want another child? No. Ga tau juga 2,3,4 or 5 taun from now.. Tp as per this very second, Im happy, content and fulfilled with Onya. Biar gw fokus ke Onya dulu. Mau kasih yg terrrrbaik buat dia. Waktu, tenaga, resources, life..... Mau bisa jadi great mom buat Onya. Gak mau cuma ngasih materi aja, I wanna be there with and for her. Gilak! Siapa sangk...

I want to live life .... knowing that I've made enough mistakes to stay sane. I want love to challenge my heart, and I want life to question my faith, and know that I've won. I want to know that some dreams live forever. I want to jump like I never fall. I want to fly like I never. ever. have to land. I could never be perfect, Im just me. And I am just as flawed as you are. There's only so much you can give without giving yourself away. And right now, it is me who's falling apart. But you can't see it.