The Me Inside....

Dari 2 ari yg lalu kepikiran terus ma Nintendo DS Lite. Never before I lost my focus whole day gara2 mikirin ginian. Pengeeeen banget punya. ... strange! Gimana dooong? Masa kudu beli? Timing-nya ga tepat niiii, kan baru mo bayar2an yg buat ngurus PR. Gimana doooong?? *mateng deee*

"Thank God for tears, my soul's highest, deepest and most expressive language. When I hurt, I need to speak this language... I need to cry" -Susan Tang It's ok to cry, but don't lose hope. Onto the page of every trial, there are narrow shafts of light that shine. Percaya deh, things are gonna be otay. Bear in mind that we're fighting a winning battle. Kita udah jadi pemenang, no matter what happen. Jangan pernah berhenti bedoa karena itu napas kita. If you're losing hope, here... let me lend you mine. You can use it all u like. ... I've got plenty of it :) Love you my fren! *huggieeessss*

Ga susah n ga mahal kok bikin cewe seneng.. hehehe, dikasih beginian aja uda seneng banget. Ternyata tipe cewe kayak gw ini cheapskate yak... dapet imel ginian aja girang bener (walo banyak banget grammar yg error!) 5 Reasons why Andi loves Candice : Have PASSION for HIM, great one, anak kiasu kalo soal bobo, bisa merelakan waktu paginya untuk bangun dan berdoa . Put me second after HIM, siapin baju andi setiap pagi dan malem, it looks simple, but knowing you, buat jadiin itu satu trend fashion yang keren, adalah sesuatu yang sulit. rela beliin andi dasi dan baju daripada beli punya sendiri :P . Bersyukur untuk apa yang kita punya we're not the richest couple or have the most convinience lifestyle, from branded freak, being understanding and accepting kipling(bogor) for style you defeat your pride dan ke "candice" an mu, untuk menjadi "kita" . Berharap untuk yang terbaik, Never give up hope, trust in me, memberi kesempatan, mendukung dan ga pernah menyerah belie...

Dear God, He was there during my teenage years, He is here now, in my midst twenties. ... please let him be there when my hair turn grey. I wanna grow old with him, with U as the center of all. I can't remember a single time when I wrote sooo much about love. With all the things happen around me lately, I love him all the more. After all these years, It's true that people change because of love. I know I did. Not so much on trying to be someone else, but trying to bring the best of urself out. Love, I may have said it tons of times lately. But if I'd said it way too many times, .... then it was probably never enough. If I had to pick, he'd be my favourite person any other day. It's like a sense of pride, and fondness everytime I hear his name, ... everytime I speak about him. And in a moment of silence, it's the sense of security ... of knowing that he's around. It's the sense of security, that God is watching over him. ... guarding his heart. I might be...

I love you more and more these days. Im so blessed to have someone like you in my life. Like seedlings that break the soil and under an umbrella of sunlight, reach for the sky the way our hearts want to burst with helium ... and float a few feet above the ground. With the best intentions, the purest of hearts, .... and let's not forget, hope. Hope is always involved. It might well be the air we inhale, and with which we inflate our lungs, ... oxygenate our blood with every thud of our purest hearts, and we osmosis into the sky. Hold on to each other along the way, Unwittingly twine ourselves around each other, ... like hair braided together. Every chapter seems better written than others I have read. You, are the best a woman can ask for. I love you. You have my heart. All of it.

Orang gw cuma lagi cerita ke mami... Gw cerita si Fenlie lagi bunting 2 bulan n ternyata ada virus tokso-nya. Trus kenapa dia jadi defensive gitu sih?? langsung bilang "Allaaah, pake2 virus gitu.. jaman dulu ga ada tuh gitu2an" dengan nada nyeleneh gitu. Ya itu jaman dulu! Kenapa juga kudu langsung 'nyerang' gitu?? dulu pas gw cerita ttg anaknya Mervi yg keguguran gara2 tokso, dia fine2 aja.. malah nyuruhin gw ngecek. Bahkan dia dulu nyuruh gw bilang ngko gw suru check. Kenapa sekarang jadi gitu??? Gw cuma cerita for goodness sake!!! Ga nyuruh siapa2, ga nyumpahin siapa2, cuma pure lagi cerita!!!!!!! Lagian kalo gw mo ngecheck pun, apa salahnya? bukan baru satu-dua orang kok yg kena kasus tokso. Noh si Mervi, Ari, P'Risfan, bahkan sisi pun dulu ada tokso... Lagiannya lagi, gw bener2 cuma cerita tanpa ada maksud apa2 kok!! Orang2 suka sok berasa paling bener, paling pinter, paling tau segalanya! Ga ada yg mo dengerin pendapat gw. bodo amat!!! Soal c-section juga......

Langit biru, rumput ijo, kayu coklat... Aku suka biru, ga suka ijo, apalagi coklat. Jam tanganku biru, kaosku ijo, mejaku coklat. Kayanya.......... saya gila. Huahuhauhuahua... doooh!! Malem minggu sendiriaaan. Besok sendiri lagiiii... Arnold kejaaaammm, kembalikan suamikuuuuu. Boseeeeenn. Im thinking about ice. Belakangan ini, aku jatuh cinta lagi sama es. Love the feeling when the cool breeze slapped my face. Good to have something my own *quote abo* Good to have a very very supportive husband. Aaaa... boseeen

Aaarrgghh!!! Kemaren da nulis panjang dan lebbbaaaarrr tiba2 hang, trus ilang! Sebbaaaalll!! Intinya : Went back on ice and had a super blast!! Met heaps of new peeps and (again) had a super blast!!!! Love to be back on ice again :) Aniwei, I completely lost my passion for the black-yellow sign. Totally gone, like today... I was supposed to go but I couldn't be bothered. Arrrrggghhh!! Semalem had a 'weird' feeling about Abo and you-know-who. Texted Abo pas makan n told her the 'weird' feeling. Doeenkk! Ampe kaget gw.... ko bisa ya gw mikir gitu? Yg kocaknya, Abo bilang gini "ga usah elu bo... gw juga" Lebih doenk lageee!! Huehugheua.. Tapi yaaa.... jaga ati lah. ____ Lagi di buaran ni, Andi diculik Arnold... menyebalkan. Talking abt Andi... God is awesome. His ways are beyond what my mind can ever comprehend. Konfirmasi dan 'teguran' itu dateng dari orang yg sama sekali ga disangka2. Dari Denny & Mervi. Out of nowhere they called us, and mereka...

I think I lost a draft of something I was writing. And I seldom save drafts to come back to later, so this must've been something hmmmm ... I needed to think on. Of course, now that it's gone and I can't retrieve it, I have nothing to think on anymore. If only I could simplify my life like this, ... just deleting away until I can think about nothing. Stayed at Andi's parents' last night. I didn't sleep well. Too much tossing around in bed, and the next thing you know, ... the black recedes, giving way to grey, and the birds are up. Talking about lacking in sleep... Had a chat with my new 'bro', Allwin. He said there were times when he didn't sleep for 72 hours straight! Creepy! The problem with insomnia is that, there comes a point when you're alone in the night, and alone in the darkness as you lay down in bed, and all you have for company are your thoughts! It's not something I look forward to. .... you know, being alone with my thoughts. I...

Ternyata semua org berubah ya :) Everyone changes. We change because otherwise we stop. I changed. All the more better.... I grew up. Older. Wiser :) In the process, if the change is bigger than you, the core doesn't so much as change but becomes destabilized. The core shifts, perhaps to find a new center of gravity to accommodate the changes, ... or because the new you requires a different mindset or a different way of relating to the world around us. My core has inexorably and slowly shifted over the few years I have been back to Indo. I can't say I wasn't aware of it. There were times when it was a conscious decision to change, ... because I thought it would make me a better person. ... because I thought I need to. ... because I thought I was doing it for something greater. Must admit, Jakarta is a tough place to reclaim oneself. It's a tough place for you to take off to be alone. It's a tough place to want to be alone ... because people here just... aren't ...

Print my Simple-Blue name card. Bikin surat pindah buat urus KK Siapin uang buat lodge PR application Pray (HARDER!!!!!) for kelapa sawit So far si itu kali ya yg kudu dilakonin dlm wkt deket. I picked up skating once again. kayak balik ke jaman sma dulu. ngeceng n dikecengin ABG. hihihi.... it was fun. Lg ga mood nulis, ga mood ngapa2in. Andi belon pulang, lagi maen bola. Abo lagi nelpon. Gw? Ga jelas lagi ngapain..