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Curahan hatiku...

Dear God,

He was there during my teenage years,
He is here now, in my midst twenties.
... please let him be there when my hair turn grey.
I wanna grow old with him,
with U as the center of all.

I can't remember a single time when I wrote sooo much about love.
With all the things happen around me lately,
I love him all the more.

After all these years,
It's true that people change because of love.
I know I did.

Not so much on trying to be someone else,
but trying to bring the best of urself out.

Love, I may have said it tons of times lately.
But if I'd said it way too many times,
.... then it was probably never enough.

If I had to pick,
he'd be my favourite person any other day.

It's like a sense of pride,
and fondness everytime I hear his name,
... everytime I speak about him.

And in a moment of silence,
it's the sense of security
... of knowing that he's around.

It's the sense of security, that God is watching over him.
... guarding his heart.

I might be deluded,
but what is true cannot lie.
We might not admit it,
but we really need each other.

Lord,
Thanks for letting him be the one.

I adore him.
I do.

I'm flawed,
but with him I am content.

I fell in love.
All over again.

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