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Reflective

Typed this last night.

What a year it has been so far.
The baby decided to come knocking.
I finally experienced labour and survived to tell the story.

I have a cuddly little adorable girl who goes 'uuuhh-aahh-auuuu'' everytime she wants milk and cramps up her lips and goes, 'hrrrrrmmmm … hrrrmmm…' everytime she passes a motion.

I hardly speak about anything else except my daughter nowadays.

To think that just a few years back I used to be totally puzzled as to why those 'mommy blogs' just talk about NOTHING but their kids. Hahaha. Now I get it. Totally! :)

I noticed that in the past few months I've less of an opinion about everything under the sun, I'm less passionate about voicing my two-cents on how religion should be practised, I'm more introverted about my political leanings, and suddenly I'm no longer media savvy – which tells you a lot about how fast things change in this community.

There were times when I questioned my sanity by quitting the most prestigious job (at least in my opinion).

But I only need to take one good look of the little human to ease all the doubts.
Watching her milestones, being there not only FOR her, but literally WITH her. That settles every raging doubts.

At times, when my moods get terrible, I thank the experts and been-there-done-thats who told me it is totally normal to be extremely hormonal as long as I am breast feeding or as long as my period doesn't return yet.

Thank God also, that Andi loves me tremendously and incredibly, so it is in experiencing the past 9 months and experiencing life with Andi since we got married 4,5 yrs ago, that I can truly look at my life, look towards the sky (because I believe God is up there the most), look around myself and say 'oh my gosh I am so blessed.'

I'm reflective today, just for a bit.

I think tomorrow I"ll be back to blogging about my kid again. Lalala.
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