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(many) Thoughts of the Night

"Never give up on what u really want to do. The person with big dreams
is more powerful than one with all the facts." (Unknown - taken from
Sidney Mohede's twitter).

That's exactly what we're doing now.
Starting the sate business soon.

Im so thankful for the wonderful support from Andi, he's been my rock
and the reason of every smile at the end of the day.
My heart beats faster everytime I see the twinkle in his eyes.

On the other note....
Yearning for something big.
It. Has. Got. To. Be MOOORREE to life than this!
Seriously!
Im super bored.
Each and every week is malls after malls, after malls... and malls! Oh
wait! And more malls!!!

Seessshh!!!

Im blessed with a great bonding within each member of the family.
We got together almost every weekend.
Tapi ya itu... Ke mall lagiii, ke mall lagi...

My dad spends million(s) each week at the malls.
He's the one paying for all the meals, groceries, coffees, petrols, etc.

Not that we're asking for it.
That's just the nature somehow.

... But sometimes it make me think,
Most of my friends are giving their parents money every month.
Some parents even specifically asked for certain amount.

Mine never do that.

can I really stand on my own?
Or have I been too comfortable with the benefits?
Have I taken advantage of my parents?

Bukannya it's time for me to pay for them ya?

I get nothing but the VERY BEST from my parents.
I know Im super blessed.
And Im grateful and have no intention to take it for granted.

Mau pake supir tinggal mangap,
Mau makan apa tinggal pesen,
Mau apa tinggal sebuutt.

Mami drives me around for years.
She's a strong lady who takes care of everybody more than she takes
care of herself.
She puts us first.
We are her number one.

Papi gives me at least 6 gold credit cards and 2 platinums.
(I dont even know how many exactly)
I can use those anytime, anywhere I want!
(and I proudly say that Im very very responsible with the usage)

Helllooooo!
Im 28 freakin' years old and Im still very much a daddy's and mommy's
girl.

Most of the time they refuse dibayarin.
That's why I go all out showering them with Bali, Bangkok n Hongkong
this year.

Those are the only way I can think of.
And I tried to hold my emosi, karena mereka kadang super nyebelin.

Andi has a very different up bringing.
His family never yells at each other.

Sedangkan mine?
I kinda used to hear my parents fight.
My brother suka ngebentak2 my mom.
My mom yelled at me.
I shouted back at her.
Mungkin cuma papi yg rada untouchable.
Secara he's an alpha-male type yg dominan.

There are bitterness,
I know I still have some.
We hurt each other badly from time to time.
Tapi I think we're pretty strong as a family.

Not every family bisa hang out tiap minggu.
Bener deh, Im really blessed.

I know I've been saying that, and I quote myself, "I have a house, but
I dont have a home yet"

Tonight I realized.
Tonight, the phrase is understood.
'home... where your heart is'

Andi is my home.
My parents are my home.
My brother is my home.
My niece is my home.
(tapi tetep... Oz or NZ is gonna be my homeland one day)

Those are the people I care most.
They're the air that I breathe.
Terimakasih Tuhan. Heaps.

Uda melenceng jauh,
I got carried away....
Intinya....
Seriously, can we go somewhere NOT mall-ie this weekend?

Maybe we should consider fishing.
Or even bungy jumping.
Or BBQ.
Or play monopoly.
Or ke dufan.
Or bercocok tanam!!
Or get a new puppy beagle!!

Or better still.... Get a PR!!!!!!

This is waay too mundane.
I should sleep.

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