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Hmmm...

Di kantor ada satu orang,
dia nih tipe2 orang yg "jago" kalo debat.
Mo ngomong apa kek, pasti dia bisa ngebalikin kata2nya.

Kalah deh gw kalo debat ama dia mah.
Jujurnya, males juga debat....
wong di'bantai' terus huehueh...
Jadi most of the time gw dengerin aja,
drpada kesel sendiri nantinya..

Lagian menurut gw, tiap orang boleh berpendapat.
... toh gw ga harus selalu setuju.

Nah, topik kali ini tuh tentang yang 'ga gw setuju'.

Menurut dia,
me - applying PR itu dianggap judi and ga seharusnya dilakukan.

Now, dia ini juga sama ama gw.
She HATES indo.. bahkan dia jauh lebih benci dibanding gw.
Dia tuh yg tiap hari bangun uda kaya org stress,
uda sampe ga semangat idup,
Stress levelnya tuh jauuuh lebih tinggi dari gw.

Tapi tadi dia bilang, ngapain apply PR,
buang uang puluhan juta buat something yg belon tentu dapet.

Hmmm?
.. bukannya ini semua worth trying for?
worth fighting for?
At least buat tipe orang kaya kita yg begitu ga sabar buat ninggalin indo.

Kalo emang duitnya ada, kenapa ngga?
Walo itu artinya kita kudu hemat2.

You'll never know the result toh.
Tapi kalo ga nyoba ya... udah ketauan banget hasilnya...
you'll NEVER get a PR.
Toh nyobanya juga pake logika, ga asal jedar jeder ga puguh.

Melan spent the same amount,
using the same agency and dia uda di melbourne sekarang.
Uda dpt PR.

And kalo sekarang gw masih disini,
masih belon dapet PR,
masih nunggu,
honestly, I have no regret kok.

Emang belon waktunya aja.
toh, we did try our best.
... siapa yg tau sih dadakan bisa ada world crisis kemarenan?

Papi selalu bilang,
tiap orang tuh ada jalannya masing2.
Tapi bukan berarti lu kudu ngejedok,
do nothing, tiap ari complain about your life,
... and expect mendadak you get what you wish for.

Usaha, usaha, usaha.

Ga tau ya,
call me an optimist,
call me hopeful,
call me stupid,
call me a spiritual-numbnut,
call me watever....

Rather than being bitter, or feels sorry about my life,
I chose to strongly, strongly believe kalo semua ada waktunya masing2.
Semua ada jalannya.
Semua ada alesannya.

And it keeps me going.
I dont wanna look back and cuma bisa berharap kalo dulu I've done things differently.
I dont think life would be fun dengan beban pikiran kaya gitu.

Apalagi sekarang ada baby.
All the more reasons to try even harder..

Then again,
gw juga sering kooo misuh2, komplen2...
and percayalah... akan tetep ada banyak misuh2 kedepannya.

Intinya, I dont want to ever give up.
Ga mau berenti sampe gw bisa bilang ke diri gw sendiri
"Aaah... this, is life"

Pengennya sih gitu ya.... hihihi
.

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