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The Time is Approaching

Barusan baca2 blog gw di year 2006.
Trus baca juga yg di livejournal taun 2005...

Banyak ya aer mata yg tumpah disitu ttg NZ.
Bener2 grateful for the journey.
Now that it's almost time.
Time for me to go.

Anehnya, as much as I want it, tetep aja ada rasa takut ya.
Ada juga rasa "ogah"-nya ninggalin jakarta yg udah bikin gw 'nyaman'.

Tapi I know, Jakarta is not my home.
It never was, and it will never be.
Denger cerita temen kemaren dari kota ke harapan indah 5 jam kena macet.
No, no. I cannot live like that anymore.
... and thank God, He opens a way out for us.

Andi wants us to join him in January.
But the tricky part, gw pingin banget nungguin Given lahir.
Gw pingin bisa sama dia,
At least for the first week of his life on earth.
Pingin bisa gendong, pingin bisa upuk2.
Pingin onya liat Given pas hari pertama dia lahir.

Kadang masi hard to believe that I'm coming back to NZ.
For good :)
God is faithfull to His words, really.
Never cease to amaze me.

Untuk saat ini,
Selain takut social life gw nanti gimana... Gw takut di pesawatnya!
Gw takut onya ga betah 14-15 jam (include transit) on the plane.
Takut dia ga bisa bobo, secara skrg dia walopun udah ga nenen, tapi masi kudu grepe2.
Masi suka minta nempelin pipi di si nenen.
Masi gedombrengan nyeruduk2.
Gimana ya di pesawat nanti...

Banyak deh otak ini worry2nya.. Huuuhh
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VD said…
Congrats ya Dice:)
Aku bener bener terharu membaca betapa janji Tuhan dipenuhi in your life :)
Kapan maen lagi ke sg? Kita gak sempet ketman nih. hehehhe:P
Or else, gue yang samperin elo ke NZ yak xixixixi
Salam buat Andy ama Onya yach :)
12:26 AM
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