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The Me Inside. The Introvert Me.

Being an introvert is not easy. 
I enjoy being alone.
Or being with just 1-2 friends.
With people I can be comfortable with.

Sometimes I wish I can be a little outgoing.
No, no... Don't get me wrong.
Im not shy. 
Though many will think I am. 
But the truth of the matter is: it takes a whole lot of energy for me to mingle or talk to someone new.

At the end of the day, it feels like all my energy being sucked up and I was left with exhaustion. 

Drained.

Like today.

We spent 4 hours at our friend's house for dinner and a game night. 
The thing is, there were 3 other families being invited and I didnt know any of them. 
Again, dont get me wrong.
They were really, REALLY nice. 
... But me being me, it's draining.

Istilah gampangnya, gw berasa kayak nahan napas selama 4 jam.
Dan sekarang setelah dirumah, gw berasa baru menghembuskan napas lagi.

That. Is how it feels like. 

Im not a people-person. 
Never was, and probably never will.
Cape loooh jadi gw kadang2.
Urusan beginian aja ribet, over-thinking. 

Dammit.
Why does it have to be so hard?!

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