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Getting Home is the Hardest Thing

Since you've been gone,
I dont like coming home.
Feel so lost.
I dont even know what to do with my socks.

The image of you waiting for me to take shower,
then when I walked to my room...
kamu cuma ngeliatin aja dengan mata gedemu.

Sampe aku buka pintu kamar,
balik badan mau tutup pintu..
You didn't move.
You waited in front of the bathroom.
Tapi matanya ngeliatin mulu.

Then when I signaled you with my hand,
or pas aku bilang "kakah, sini!"
... baru deh kamu buru2 bangun, ngambil kos kaki yg udah ga diemut,
trus jalan cukucuk kucuk ke ikut ke kamar.

Trus minta naek ke ranjang.....

Ahh, you were never a jumper dari kecil dulu.
Kamu bahkan ga pernah bisa turun tangga sendiri.
Terlalu manja!!
Ga kaya piko yg aujubilee aktifnya waktu muda.

Uuhh... kakaah...
Aku relaaa banget kok kamu pergi.
Sungguh.

Aku cuma kangen banget.
Kehilangan...
apalagi abu kamu belum sampe lagi dirumah.

Im lost without youuuu!!!

Kemaren aku, papi ama mami talked about you.
You know, you are loved. A WHOLE LOT!
Kita cerita2 gimana kita keilangan kamu.
Kita seolah2 berlomba2 cerita tentang kamu.

Papi bilang kamu biasanya gangguin dia makan.
Minta garukin, minta ikut turun...
Ngotot minta liat kuya (and belakangan landak)
Jerit2 kalo ditinggal ke bawah pagi2...

Mami bilang kamu marah2 kalo ketoel pas lagi bobo.
Bikin mami kesemutan kalo malem gara2 ga bisa gerak karena kamu tidurnya meraja lela.
Trus mami bilang dia kebagian bagian cebokin kamu mulu.

Kalo aku sih, all of the above.
Dulu ya.. aku bahkan pernah jilat idung kamu!
Inget ga kamu??
I did that karena aku tau love language-nya anjing tuh pake jilatan.
I just wanted to make sure kamu tau aku sayang kamu!!!!
coz I DO!!! I super DO!!

Aku juga duluuu pernah jilat Piko, tapi seringan kamu...
karena ga tahan Piko mulutnya bau.. ya pik ya? :)

Tau ga sih, orang2 pada bilang
"orang hamil ga boleh deket2 anjing"
... bahkan ada orang yg sampe ngasih anjingnya ke orang lain gara2 hamil.

I would NEVER do that.
Aku yakin baby is gonna be fine.
Aku ga ngurangin frekuensi aku peluk kamu, gendong kamu.

Karena kamu part of the family.
... and I know baby inside juga tau kalo kamu itu keluarganya.
Waktu kamu meninggal, baby didn't stop moving.
As if dia juga tau and ngerasa...

Sekarang sepi kah...
Uda ga ada Piko, ga ada kamu.
Cuma ada 3 landak yg masih pada galak!

O iya.. sekarang kita punya 3 landak.
Tadi pagi baru dateng 1 yg coklat.
Nanti kamu liat dari surgamu ya....

Kamu santai2 aja disana,
ga usah takut geledek lagi.
Ga usah takut kalo mati lampu ya.
Disana pasti enak kan....
one day, I'll come visit you darling.

Titip peluk sayang buat Piko juga ya..
I really love and miss you both.
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