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Clock is Ticking

Kurang dr 2 bulan lagi gua berangkat.
Takut ga? Takut!
Bingung ga? Bingung!

Masi banyak hal yg belum settle... Rumah belum ada, mobil belum ada, sekolah sih kira2 udah adalah.
Skrg lg nunggu si official stiker biru itu nempel di pasport.
Mungkin ga ya dpt before christmas?

Belakangan ini gua lagi gundah.
Apalagi kalo bukan masalah rumah... .
Pdhal enak bgt kan kalo bisa beli rumah cash, gamplokin duit 4-5m ke bank. Nih, gua bayar lunaaasss. Hahaha
Kenapa ya harga rumah disana mahal2. Belon buat isinya.

Kemaren, bahkan sampe tadi pagi gua sempet frustasi.
Sekalinya ada rumah yg cocok... Eeeh, harganya ebujubuneng.

Skrg I'm doing what I need to be doing.
Duduk diem si starbucks, with my earphone on, trus mikir and pray.

Saat ini keadaan disekeliling gw seems to be soooo out of my control, jauuhh diluar kemampuan gw..
Kayanya kecewa, takut, bingung...
Ahirnya I close my eyes and try to see the unseen.
Ambil napas dalem2....
This is exactly what I need.
Duduk diem. Ngobrol sama the Unseen :)
And itu changes things.

Bisa ditebak gw yg cengeng ini setengah mati nahan aer mata biar ga ngences. Bukan karena gua sedih... Ga tau juga kenapa sih, tp ya begitulah.

Klise yah.

Terus gw baca blog entry-nya Arman yg terahir...
He promised to carry Emma sampe dia ga kuat gendong emma lagi.
Gw liat ati seorang bapak ke anaknya disitu.
Again, si cengeng ini ngembeng2 baca kalimat simple di ahir blognya.
Jadi adem deh ati gua... Gw percaya atinya Tuhan juga gitu.

Jadi apa sekarang gw udah ga gundah?
Masih.
Tapi ati gw adem skrg. Things are gonna be just fine.
It's gonna be great.
It's gonna be awesome.
It's gonna be alright.

We're going to the promised land.
It's gonna be great.
It's gonna be awesome.
It's gonna be alright.

Soal rumah? Pasti nemu yg terbaik.
Yang cocok, yg harganya masuk bajet, yg neighbourhoodnya ok.
It's gonna be great.
It's gonna be awesome.
It's gonna be alright.

I may not have much to offer, tapi Tuhan...
1 ati, 2 tangan, 2 kaki, tiap hembus napas and tiap detak jantung ini percaya 101% that You are God.
I know that u know exactly what You're doing.
Dan aku percaya.

Comments

Arman said…
yah apalagi Tuhan ya... Dia pasti akan menggendong kita kapanpun juga. gak mungkin Dia gak kuat kan... :)

cheer up ya!!!
8:36 AM
VD said…
Wah Dice, gak nyangka kamu juga baca blogny Arman...i am always silent reader hahahha. Will pray for you, Andi ama Onya have a blessed Christmas.

Mang serem sih, stepping into the unknown. But He is there too...:)



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