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A Very Very Near Miss

First post of 2019 turns out to be a rather, scary one. 

Never have I ever had a really, really near miss like the one I just had. 
I had an early shift, I started at 4 am today.
So naturally, I woke up before 2 am. 
Plus I haven't really been sleeping since my ICU days more than a year ago.
Had wrote about this (heck! I've written a whole bunch of things!) in my draft folder, but thought it'll be for my eyes only. 

Anyway... so I've dosed off a number of times lately, but nothing major really. 
Plus I've NEVER drive tired when Im driving Andi or Onya. 
It's like there's a switch in my brain yg bisa atur kapan kudu alert, kapan boleh slack off. 

I know I have a weird brain. 
Like, seriously. 

Tadi uda mau sampe rumah, I was on the motorway just after Newlands.
Next thing I knew, my car made a very loud noise from the gravel and thank God for BMW's technology - the steering wheels was vibrating like mad. 
(it automatically vibrate if the car somehow lost control/sway too far without any signal - tujuannya buat drivernya jadi alert lagi kalo lg ga fokus or ketiduran kayak gw tadi).

I woke up in that split second and found my car was just an inch away from nabrak pembates jalanan. 
Anjit langsung seger, deg2-an setenga mampus! 
Langsung buat kiri lagi, dan untungnya jalalan sepi. 
Kebayang kalo telat sedetiiikk aja bangunnya, itu bisa fatalnya kek apa. 
Either mobil gw kebanting buang kiri... or kl lebi sue nabrak pembates n kena mobil lawan arah. 
Mampus lah gw. 

Trus ya begitu calm down kok jadi laen lagi mikirnya.... 
Kenapa ga sekalian aja nabrak ya. 
Less likely bakal nabrak mobil lawan arah sih, unless mobil gw terbang. 
Karena pembatasnya lumayan gede gap nya... i think bisa tahan speed (max speed disitu 80 km/hr) with that impact deh.
So it'll likely be a single accident, karena sepi n jarak mobil jauh2 banget.
Gw si amit2 ya kalo sampe ngelibetin mobil laen. 

Ya untungnya mobilnya ga kenapa2. 
Peleknya besot... tapi somehow ga kena bodi loh. 

Intinya, Im still alive. 

Ah. Andai orang2 tau apa yg ada di otak gw saat ini. 
Stop ya orang2 yg kotbah suruh gw "be grateful"... It has nothing to do with being grateful. 
This is a whole new level. A level waaayyy above you.


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