Another Bucket List

I honestly dont know whether I can ever do this.

And I honestly dont know why I wanna do it. I just wanna.

I wanna........ shave my hair bald.

Yep. But I dont think I'll ever have enough courage to do it though.

Must be liberating, somehow.

I've experienced with lots of short haircuts... and my motto was (still is) "hair grows".

So I really dont understand what's stopping me to shave it bald.

Just a random thought.

I've friends from my "youth", who don't change at all. Their routines are still the same, still going to the same church, still "serving", still wearing the same style of clothing.

While there is absolutely NOTHING is wrong with that... but it just made me think... are they really content? Donthey feel fulfilled? Dont they get bored?

Day in, day out.... same shit different day.... for years?

It's totally okay if they trully enjoy it, no judgement passed.... but are they really enjoying their life? Can they really say "this is life. This is the good life I've always longed for. This, is enough"

As for me, yes. This is the life I longed for. I am where I wanna be, with the people that trully matter.

Just a thought about many of my friends.

Anywaay.... maybe one day I'll shave my head. As I said. Hair grows. Maybe one day. Maybe never. Maybe. Who knows? :)

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Bucket List

Yep. Been hearing a lot about people dropped dead suddenly. Mulai dari si Adjie Masaid, babenya si Joshua, then just now Emma's friend juga Dadaism died of heart attack. She was 29 years old, just got ,arrayed last October. Life is so fragile. That's why I really hate Andi each time I have to remind him over and over again about healthy lifestyle. Anyway, decided to make a bucket list for myself. 1. Back to NZ 2. Sky dive 3. Vacation to Russia 4. Having more than enough funds for Onya to pursue her degree in England, Oxford University preferably :) 5. Ngeliat Andi punya bodi keren 6. Buying a house for my parents 7. Karet tengsin dijual Hmmm....... Belon kepikiran yg lawn. Nanti di update lg deh

Pippy

We have a new addition in the family. We adopted a Jack Russell from SPCA. Kenapa anjing? Karena seumur idup gua, for as long as I can remember, gua selalu punya anjing. Bukan cuma sekedar "miara" loh, tapi yg bener2 part of the family. Yg paling membekas itu tentu aja Piko ama Picca my last two dogs. Kakah died when I was about 5 months pregnant with Onya. Jadi Onya sama sekali ga sempet ketemu my dogs. Makin kesini gw makin yakin, kalo animals play an important role in kids life (at least di idup gw lah). They learn about responsibility, caring and most importantly compassion. I wanna give a chance buat Onya ngerasain apa yg gw rasain ke Piko n Kakah. The gift of unconditional friendship they gave... And how u learn to love them too. Kenapa adopt? Karena saya ini agak2 idealis tapi realistis. I love animals. Dogs especially. Idealis karena gw mau do the right thing YG GW BISA. Realistis karena, as much I want to.... Gw ga akan sanggup kl disuru jadi...

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