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The Old Times

My mom was looking for my bro's thyroid X-ray (or something).
She literally turned the drawers upside downs. 
She made a huge mess last night. 

While doing that, 
she found some old photos of me, Andi, Lindy and Cissy. 
She said "de, dulu kamu deket banget ya ama sisi".. 

Hmm... 
Yep. 
Looking at the photos, no doubt that we were in a very tight friendship back then. 
I think it was 2000/2001. 

Time flies, 
... and people change. 
 
We drifted apart..
I drew a line. 
And quite frankly, 
I dont care. 

It's not like we're enemies... it's just that... 
we stop talking. 
And we left it that way.

Ya, ya.. we still sms to wish each other happy bday and stuff. 
.. but that's it. 

I never bad-mouth her to my Malaysian family,
but I know she did. Or does. Watever. 
And I think more than anything, I was disappointed.

So I drew a line. 
A thick one, that is. 
And Im perfectly content with that. 

As far as Im concern, I only draw that thick line to two people in my life. 
One : Sisi. 
Two : My grandmother. 

I dont hate them or anything, 
but I dont love them either.
I dont hold grudges or anything...  
I simply dont care. 
I've hardened my heart in such a way that, they're just not significant. 

People would say "udalah, namanya juga orang tua.."
well, to me.. that doesn't justify all the things she did. 
Gw bukan tipe orang pendendam. 
Gw ga dendam ko sama oma... suer kaga... 
... gw juga ga benci sama sekali... setitik juga kaga. 
... gw ga pernah bentak2 or marahin dia, 
... gw juga selalu ngomong baek2, 
Tapi honestly, it doesn't matter whether ada dia or ngga. 

Gw cuma ga peduli... 
Call me a bitch, call me a rebel, 
but at least Im not a two-faces hypocrite. 
at least Im being honest. 

Ga ko, gw ga jahat sama orang. 
Sama Oma juga gw ga jahat... 
I respect them as human beings.
I never hurt them... gw cuma "elu-elu, gua-gua"
Just dont bother me, I wont bother you either. 
I mind my own business. 
That's all. 

Same thing with sisi, 
gw juga ga jahat ko ama dia... 
As much as I want to bad-mouth her to SL, (as she did)
... as much as I want to. 
but I NEVER, i repeat, NEVER do that. 

Paling gw curhatan ama Abo doang..... 

Once again, gua mah ga benci/sebel ama mereka, 
beneran udah kayak... hmmm... kayak apa ya.. 
kayak... ngeliat orang di TV, 
ga peduli... cuma tau doang "oh, itu Brad Pitt... dia mungut anak" gitu.. 
gimana sih..  ya gitu lah.
Bener2 ga significant lah... 

And I dont consider that as a lost. 
Biasa aja... they're not worth my energy.
It's better off like this.... elu-elu, gua-gua aja..

They're just a familiar strangers. 

Hmm.... this side of me, 
sometimes I dont like. 

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