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I Love To Love You

Yep yeap, lagi dengerin lagunya Kent Henry.
I love to love you.
It's been a while since I last expressed my love to my maker.
It's been a long, looong while.

It's been a while since I last wrote Him a love letter too.
I've forgotten that there's a great magnificent Being up there,
.. who's looking out for each and everyone of us.

Percaya atau ngga, no matter how hard life can be,
... it's easier when you have faith.
It's easier when you know for sure, that Someone is taking a good care of you.
It's consoling to hear Someone says "It's gonna be alright, dear"

And I know that He's telling the truth.
I know that things are gonna be alright.

Where did all the flame go?
Where did I go wrong?

I questioned myself alot,
If God is the God of justice, are we not suppose to be the people of justice too?

The problem with me is,
I do nothing apart from questioning and thinking.
Pathetic.
Pagi ini, I realized that doa aja ga cukup.
I need to get up and put feet on my prayers.
Sometimes it takes getting involve toh?

But how do I start?
Where do I start?
What my passion truly is?
Kok ya jadi orang useless banget sih?

I know that I've got lots of potentials.
.. but how do I make the most of it?
Aaaaa, frustratiiiing!!

Dear Papa in heaven,

Your presence is all I've ever yearned for.
I can truly be myself with You.
Never have I experienced so uncomplicated presence as I have felt in Your arms,
.... producing a contentment as extensive as this.

So much that I could venture to say....
if a flame could be frozen,
if eternity could be prolonged in a solitary moment,
this moment, this flame,
.... I would extent eternally in this warm bright morning.

When you say You love me,
the world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me,
.... in that moment I know why I'm alive.

Please help me to be a person You want me to be...
with all that I am, with all that I have,
with all of my strength and breath..
Help me. Please.

Please, dont let this feeling end,
It's everything I am,
Everything I wanna be.

I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true,
Since I've found you
Lookin' through the eyes of love.

Now I can take the time,I can see my life
As it comes up shining now,
Reachin' out to touch you,
I can feel so much, Since I've found you
Lookin' through the eyes of love.

And now, I do believe,
That even in a storm, we'll find some light
Knowin' you're beside me, I'm alright.

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