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Today,
Work was such a dread,
Baski was such a jerk as always,
wedding plan was too much to bear,
new house created so much tantrums between me and Andi,
Ester's dad passed away, which somehow made me feel down in a way I can't even explained,
and the list goes on.

All in all, I had a long, shitty day today.
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Wedding...... less then 3 months lagi.
Somehow gw maleees banget kalo ngebayangin sincia taon depan.
Musti ngumpul2 ama Andi's big family.

I grew up in a small-family circle.
Kita ampir ga pernah yg namanya ngumpul sama Om, tante n cousins.
Almost never.
From scale 1 to 10, frekuensi kita ngumpul2 palingan juga 0.3 (yes, zero point three)
There's always been me, dad, mom, bro, selly, andi n oma.
Ga pernah tuh yg namanya ngumpul satu keluarga besar....

My dad has 4 other siblings.
Om Jijin di Jambi,
Om Wawan di Cicurug,
Om Bubun di Jerman,
Om Bebeng di Yunani.

Jadi emang secara geografi, kita emang ga mungkin sering2 ngumpul.
Sedangkan dari mom's side...... hmm, I practically know almost no one!!
Paling Alung n Ci momo.

N kita never ngumpul bareng2.
Paling sesekali Om Jijin dateng n we had dinner di bakmi GM.
Itu juga belon tentu setaon sekali.
I dont even know what most of my cousins look like!

N you know wat???
Im happy with that. Really I am.

Gw ga suka basa basi just for the sake of being nice n polite.
Too much drama!!!
Yg ada malah jadi ajang gosip. Males banget daaah!
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Ga usah deket2 gw dulu deh,
Im sooo not in a good mood.

Gw pusing mikirin kawinan,
males ngomong soal rumah juga,
ga niat basa basi soal kerjaan,
bete denger si piko gonggong mulu minta kue, rakus!!!
keki liat si kakah cemberut mulu,
najong liat infotainment yg ngurusin hal2 ga penting,
ribet ngedengerin suara si oma,
gemes ama Andi yg maen pesen keramik 5 dus,
pokonya nothing seems right!!

And I guess that pretty much sums up everything.
I've learned that expectations and happiness are sort of inextricably linked.
Sometimes high expectations only bring disappointment, if not outright unhappiness.

Kesel dikasih harapan2 kosong mulu.
Emang enak??!?!?!!!

Ga usa ngomong de!!
Dieeemm! ngerti ga? DIYEM LUH!
Bau! Cacing! Jelek! Daki-an! Gonggo! Iiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!
@#^%##?>%@%&*!!!?!?!

*baru inget, apprentice hari ini apa besok yee?*

Au ah! Gua seeebbbeeeelll!!
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