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Mellow yellow jellow again.
I've been doing lots of thinking lately.
.... about life.
.... about dreams and hopes.
.... about me.

And the results?
hihihi, sekarang ini gw lagi terserang krisis kepercayaan sama diri sendiri,
ngrasanya ga bisaaaaaaa terusss...
ga bisa ini, ga bisa itu...
makanya kadang suka rada stress.

but you know what?
... through it all,
I grew up.
I may not like it, but doesn't change the fact that I did grow up.
People around me juga grow up.
I guess we're all changing as we get older ya?

Good thingnya, walo lagi ga pede,
I found myself as an optimist.
Yg jelek bisa jadi bagus.
Yg ga mungkin pasti jadi mungkin.

Im happy to say that I am, a positive person.
Yes, I wasn't always on top.
I slumped, I had my low moments.
... but I always bounced back up.
And each time, I believe it's getting better.

Gw bersyukuuur bgt,
... bahwa hidup gw warna warni.

Gw yakiin banget kalo gw n Andi sedang menapaki tangga kesuksesan.
Tangga yg kita bangun diatas dasar yang kokoh,
... diatas dasar kerja keras dan kejujuran,
dan pastinya, diatas dasar iman dan pengharapan to our Lord Jesus.
hehehe.

Sesuatu yang besar lagi menunggu kita di depan sana,
... dan gw harus punya integritas dan hati yang teguh buat berjuang ngeraih itu semua...
walo ga gampang,
n ga selamanya jalan yang gw laluin mulus2 aja,
it's not always a bed of roses.

So far, the road's been looong... and rocky.
jalannya bebatu, begelombang dan bekerikil,
.... tapi itu semua cuma bisa ngelukain sedikit,
paling lecet2, baret, besot2, bedarah,
separah2nya patah tulang laaah.. hauhauhua....

trus lukanya bakal jadi borok.
Trus boroknya ngelotok.
... abis ngelotok.... sembuuuh deeh.
*menurut pengalaman maen roller dulu*

So, cepatlah sembuh dan berjalan lagi...
di depan sana banyak hal2 baik yang menanti.........................

Makasih Tuhan,
through it all, I was - I am - and I will never be alone.

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You

And I wait on You

I'll sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all
-Hillsong

Moga2 tar malem bisa bobo enak.
Amiiiinnnn

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