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Things I enjoy, not because I have to but because I WANT to...


* Driving. alone.
* Liatin Piko n Picca tidur...
* Minumin cafe mocha ampe kembung
* Ngliatin foto waktu sekolah dulu (yaaa, yang ini mah malah bikin tambah stress.... rada tolol)
* Just sit on my bed, hug my pillow...and throw it away...take it...and throw...take and throw...and kick it...after all...hug lagi... (another tolol-ism)
* Scream, maki2 orang laen.
* Nonton tipi
* Ikut Jo backpacking ke Thailand n Vietnam for 8 friggin' weeks!! (shiitt, she got me drooling all over.. pengen banget ikut.... )

Talking about my last point... Jo has a life!
I found myself telling me to get a life.
Idup kan cuma sebentar... then why don't I do something I want?
Ga usah kepentok sama 8.30 - 4.30 office hour,
Ga usah ngeliatin tampang Baski,
Ga usah pusing soal apa2....

Bule gitu tuh... they have a life.
Dulu si Pete n Jenny, pergi ke Africa for 3 months... backpacked aja,
seeing different side of the world.
Biar mata juga kebuka.... ga butek ngeliatin polusi n laga tengil orang2 sini.

Gw pengen ikut Jo!
Ga usah 8 minggu deh... 2 or 3 weeks will do.

Tapi ga mungkin dikasih... apalagi dia perginya nanti, after gw merit.
liat aja deh, gw beneran pengen ikut dia after the wedding.
Lagian Andi juga masih kerja.... ditinggalin 2 or 3 weeks, I think he'll survive!

Gw mo berenti kerja aja dulu,
There's more, MUCH MORE to life than just sitting here in thise non-internet office.
Sometimes (just sometimes), we need to adopt hedonism.
I need to be a hedonist now....
stop worrying about life and start to live.
For real.

Fenlie aja bilang, burung perkutut aja bisa idup...
masa kita manusia cuma ngejar materi terus??
Gw mao enjoy life.

Another thing,

I've got a promise to keep.
... that gw akan membuat idup gw lebih berharga,
bukan karena kehadiran orang lain di sisi gua,
tapi karena apa yang gw lakukan.

Gw mo get involve.
Gw mo ke Jogja, hands on nulungin orang2 itu.
.... ga cuman nyumbang duit.
Gw mo ga usah peduli soal kantor, soal rutinitas dll.
Gw mo do what feels right!

Pikir deh, what have I done so far?
Ga ada.
Gw cuma simply existing, just getting through each day.
Kerja doang, paling ke mall jalan2, beli barang, potong rambut dll dsb.
Not a bad thing sih, I enjoy those activities as well.
Tapi... maaan, ga ada artinya!

Ga ada kepuasan batin tauuuu.
Gw inget dulu gw pernah nguras seluruh isi dompet gw buat beli makanan buat homeless guy.
Gw inget, itu pas tanggal 17 maret on my 21st birthday.
N that felt so good.

The joy of giving.
... which i haven't felt for a very long time lately.
Gw pengen idup! Ga cuma sekedar idup!

Tolol. *ga nyambung emang, just feel like saying tolol all the time*

Tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol tolol.
gee... im loosit iiiiitt.
Tolol.

Huauhuahuha...
Tolol.
Itu kata satu lucu ya kalo diulang2 kedengerannya.
tolol... kekeke... tolol tolol tolol.

gila..tolol.

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