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Pengen banget pergi jauh.
Jaauuuhh!
Literally yg million miles away.

Searian gw begulet, beguling, bekarate ama hati sama logika...
cuma dapet satu hasil..."gw ga maaauuuuuu!!!"
tapi biar gitu... tetep aja...
rasa 'ga enak' and 'kewajiban' itu tetep ada...

Ni ari hati sama logika perang lagi.
... antara marah, kesel, benci DAN toleransi.
Pantat!
I know everyday is a battle...
tapi today is exceptionally hard!

Gw lagi pengen pergi jauh dari sini...
jaaaaauh dari semua...
Pengen lepasin semua karung goni isi batu yang gw bawa...
.. cape lari sambil bawa karung yang beratnya ampun2 itu...
pengen berenti, lepasin karungnya...
trus istirahat...

Tapi selama gw masih disini,
gw ga akan pernah bisa istirahat!
.. kebanyakan orang2 yg too friggin' judgmental dan gila hormat!!

Tuhan,
musti gimana sih sayah??

Penggeeeeenn lepas dari semua embel2 duit, duit n duittt!!
Pengeeeen beduaan aja ama Andi tanpa harus mikirin orang laen!!
Egois??

No! Kalo gw egois, gw ga akan nyoba buat fit in.
.. kalo gw egois, gw bakal pegi ke bandung kemaren!
.. kalo gw egois, gw bakal nonton disney channel tadi sore!
.. kalo gw egois, gw bakal pegi jadi imigran gelap ke US bareng Lindy!!!!!!!!!!
Biarin orang mo ngomong apa!
Ga peduliiii!!!
Gw cuma mikirin Andi doang!

Mereka ga ngertiiii!!
cuma kegedean gengsi ga puguh n nyindir2 ga penting.

Tuhaaan,
Im drained today.
Uda coba kan buat kuat bbrp ari ini??
Uda sama sekali ga mikirin diri sendiri lagi kan??
Uda bener2 neken ego n mikir buat orang laen toh??

Nah,
Uda cape kan denger kendi jerit2??
Biarrin! Pokoke Tuhan tanggung jawaaab!
... udah nempatin aku disini, di posisi ini.
Ga mao tau, pokonya kalo emang You want me here,
then You'll have to infuse me with greater strength!
BIG TIME!
.. kalo ga, ga bakal sanggup.

Makasih kemaren malem You sent us home early.
... kalo aku masih disana, beneran ga tau what I'd do.

Ada ga sih lowongan kerja di Papua??
... pengen deh kerja di sono while waiting for our PR.
Di aceh juga gapapa... selama ga disini!
Anywhere but here!

Bodo bodo bodo bodo bodooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drama drama drama drama dramaaaa!!!

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