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Ah. Apa lagi ini. 
Been feverish since wednesday... not as high as last month. This one hover around 38.1°c - 38.9°c.
Not high enough to keep me in bed. 

Maybe I should. 

Tapi ya ga bisa juga loh. Dah kelamaan bolos juga yg mustinya masuk dari kamis. 
I went back to work Jumat kemaren, I reckon I did well. 
Without niat blagu2, tapi gw cukup konfiden kalo I have a very good work ethic. And!!! My current project is sooo much fun!!! Im recruiting!! Damn! I love recruitments! I love being on the other side hahaha.

Then after work pushed myself buat ketemuan sama temen SMP yg cuma mampir welli for 12 hrs. Jadi ajak dia dinner n liat night market. 
Sampe rumah dah ampir jam 11 mlm kayanya.

Maybe I shouldn't. 

Then today morning went to Fairra's baby shower. Yg I kinda pushed myself juga karena she's been so nice to me. How can I not go to her baby shower. 
Stayed there from 1045 til almost 5pm.
Itupun i was one of the earliest to left the party looh. 

Maybe I shouldn't go.

Now my upper right and left quadrant hurt. My head hurt. Im cranky as hell.

Took a home-test urine dipstik and the amount of blood, nitrite, leu, protein are all in medium high positive. Monyet. 

Was on antibiotics dari Rabu tapi Jumat sama Shona dikasi emergency prescription of stronger antibiotics karena  hasil lab hari kamis acak2-an semua.

Skrg reluctant kudu mulai minum yg stronger apa tunggu aja sehari lagi. 

Dikata getting worse ya ngga terlalu. Panasnya hover doang dari rebo ya segitu2 doang. Tapi dikata mambaik juga ngga. Stagnant aja gitu. 

Yg getting worse cuma pain on the upper quadrants doang. Ah. 

Kalo lg gini pengennya ngedekem aja di kamar (which I did). I let andi jagain onya, it's weekend anyway. Her tv time. Lagian tadi dari pagi sampe sore dia udah puas maen sama Mike and Nicole. Let her wind down with tv deh.

Skrg on my own. Kicked andi out of the room. Untung dia very very understanding and nurturing. Walo I can be such a pain in the ass kalo lagi not well. Galak n judes banget loh gua. My defense mechanism!

Kamis I was summoned to see the neurologist, yg very very thorough ngecek gw sampe ampir 2 jam. At the end ada neurologist senior yg ikutan meriksa. Good thingnya they both agree kalo my short vision lost itu cuma temporary. They said it may take 6-8 weeks for me to regain my normal vision. 

And mereka bilang ini the way my body fight the nasty bugs, virus and infection. 

Having said that, on examination my left sight is quite significantly weaker than the right. And dites jalan gimana itu gw kaya lost my balance and almost fell! Tapi mereka juga bilang that's because of what's going on in my system. (Karena hasil MRI bagus) - Saraf2 gw tuh fight semua, bodi gw lagi diserang infection. So every fiber is fighting karena my immune system belon 100% back up n running due sepsis last month. 

To be sure, they ask me for a test to eliminate Miller Fisher Syndrome. Which is scary, i think it's another form of guillain-barre. Serem kan! But then again, it's just a process of elimination. Karena so much is going on at the same time!! Deep down yakin banget sih i dont have MFS. 

Huuu.
Aku uring2-annnn. 
Aku keseeellll. 
Im uncomfortableee.
Ga enaakk.
Nothing feels right.
Morang mariiinggg. 

Tau ga what make me slightly better and bikin gw stop vomitting (or gagging) apa?? 
Teh kotak dingin!!!!! 

That's pretty much THE ONLY thing yg bikin gw physically better. Literally!
Untuung gw punya stock!
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