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Stand Up For Love

My thumb prickles ickle ickleee.
Fuck the stress!
Maybe I should see DR. Maya tomorrow.
Never been to this doc before, but apparently she’s good.
(notice the DR. instead of Dr.)
Dr. Otek recommended her.
… and si Domble uda sembuh tuh setelah makan obat die.
So yeah, I think she’s good.

K, melancholy time now.
Just read an email from Eka.
… it gave me goosebumps.
Yes, I know the Destiny’s Child’s song she mentioned.

how can I pretend that I dont know what's going on,
when every second, every minute
... another soul is gone.

Aduuuh, where the heck have we gone wrong ya?
We were sooo passionate for humanity.
But all those passions have gone dry.

She’s right.
Deep down, if only we look just a bit deeper.
… just a bit.
Then we will find that it’s still there.

Pengeeen banget bisa get involve in something like Mercy Ministry or kayak Oprah Angel Network.
Ga usah yg Christian-based organization gitu.
Ga perlu bawa2 religion into this picture.
Toh kalo people can see our love, they’ll be able to see the Source of Love juga toh?

I know that I’ve been blabbering about how I wanted to make a difference bla bla bla…
..... But I never got round to it.
Tapi bener deh, the passion is still there.
Passion for humanity more then anything else.

My hurdle is..... where and how do I start?

Kapan ya gw bisa bener2 start doing something and not just saying it??
I always thought that in order for me to make a difference, I’ll have to be rich first.
And I still think that it’s true.

Hari gini… apa sih yg ga pake duit?
Being realistic aja.. everything, literally everything pake duit.

I know that you share the same vision, Kendi... back in the days....
Why dont we actually make it happen??????!!!!!!!!!! Kita ga harus live in pedesaan yg ga jelas to stand up for love... Di jkt sendiri juga banyak kow yg butuh bantuan.............

Gw skrg aim nya ga harus buat mereka jadi kristen.. gw ga mo emphasise that it's a christian based organisation.....
Let people see it for themselves....

The whole point is just to help people and show people that there's hope.........

but yeah, at this stage, gw sendiri lom yakin wat im gonna do.... I guess I'll go with the flow....
Gimana gw mo help out people, kalo skrg gw sendiri yg struggle... hahahaha

Maka itu gw mo get ma life sorted first....... and yeah we'll see...wat's next in the option hahaha


She’s damn right.
I can truly say that I understand how she feels.
We need to get our lives sorted first.
As for me, I need to win the battle within my head.
The fear, the doubts… the intimidations,
I need to rise up above my limitation.

Shit man, jadi pengen nangiiiis. Hiks.

I still remember what John Jack said to me,
.... stand up, and help a lot of people.

God, it's not that I don't love You anymore.
It's not that I dont need You.
It's just that... I think Im on that phase once again.

Where are you?????
I need You more then ever now.
... but it feels like You're more then a zillion miles away.

Please, God.
No more hard-lessons-learnt.
I've learnt mine.
No more, please.

My cry tonite is that,
I wanna be able to stand up for love.

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